Wednesday, August 15, 2007 . 12:09 AM

I wish I could go back to the past.
I never want to be alone. Never want to walk this path alone.
Will you walk with me by my side once again?
I know it's impossible.
Sighs.

They can only be dreams. Dreams that once awaken, reality falls into place.
But the dreams are so sweet, I wish I will never be awaken in the first place.
The dreams represents the hopes, the longiness for you.
But I'm being thrown back into reality.
What am I supposed to do?

Qiusong did say there are somethings that we know and should not harbour any other hopes.
For the higher we hope, the higher the disappointment we'll face.
And so he have learnt it.
Have I?
Yes, I have.
But I still wish to hope for the impossible to become possible.

喜欢和爱一个人是不一样的。。

Friday, August 10, 2007 . 12:38 AM

9th August marks the nation’s birthday.
And so, Happy Birthday Singapore!

Went to Joy’s hostel today. With Jeremy and Alan too.
Shouldn’t have called them along. Hahaha =p

Met her to go shopping for groceries first before picking up Jeremy and before going to NTU.
Hall 14 Blk 68 Level 4 Room 1410. Hahaha.
I liked her room.
For the very fact that her room number is my birth date.
And the environment there is really very nice and condusive.
And if I was even there in the first place, I think I’ll just go crazy crapping and talking to her at night. Haha.
That’s hall life.

Anyway, as I said, we shouldn’t called Jeremy and Alan along. HAha.
I think we practically have so much things to say.
Like after 1 week of her staying in hall and all.
Too many things to talk already. And with the guys around, we can never talk so conveniently and crazily. Haha.
Ok. Not to mention the very fact that Alan was my bf and Jeremy was her bf before.
And so, nothing is convenient when we go crazy sharing stuffs. Hehe.
I shall work harder to get a place into NTU next year.
And I'll get to have Joy as my roomie. Hehe.

Had a tour around NTU. And dropped Alan off at a convenient place for him to go home.
Went to Eastpoint to get ink cartridge, and dinner before heading to Joy’s place.
Jeremy treated Sakae Sushi, Joy’s parents treated KFC and I treated drinks. Hehe.
What a feast we have at her house!

Watched NDP 07 at her house.
Slightly disappointing this year.
Though I like the Parade and Ceremonial (P&C) part.
And I don’t really like the Show part. =p
And this year, I got to watch the fireworks from Joy’s house! Hehe.
Anyway, stayed at her place till 10+pm before heading home.

That’s my National Day. Hehe.

Friday, August 03, 2007 . 10:45 PM

I almost did the craziest thing today.
And that is to send you an sms, asking you to come back again.
Perhaps I really felt so lost that all I wanted was you only.
ANd my life will fall back into place.
But I didn't.
I knew you would ignore it.

If only you really know what's happening to me day after day..
It's really been a long long time since I actually spoke to you..
Do you think a friendship will really work things out fine for us?
Do you really think it'll at least allow us to be closer again one day?
I doubt so.

The LA people always managed to make me have my fair share of fun and laughter.
And I do admit, I enjoy their company.
So much that I know I won't really think about anything so often..

But once, I'm left all alone... I can't help but to start thinking and wishing and praying..
What should I do?

Thursday, August 02, 2007 . 10:21 PM

If only someone will bring me to a far away place.
Somewhere far away from this tiny island.
To another island/country, where I'll be able to get my own peace, my own life.

And yes, once again.. because of everything, I cried another time.
Wonder how many more of these times I'll need to go through.
Been so frequent that I'm feeling tired of it...
The tears will never stop flowing anymore..

If only suicide is the only solution to solve everything..
Won't that be so much better?