Saturday, October 28, 2006 . 11:50 PM
25/10/06... wednesday..woke up without voice.
end up called my mom and she told me wait for my dad reach home bring me go doctor take MC.
damn.
one day of MC gone like that.
but no choice.
totally and practically voice-less.
went see doctor, said infection. =(
went home, slept whole day.
bad day too.
sighs.
alright alright, i'll try and learn.
no guarantee but i'll still try.
just give me time. :)
26/10/06... thursday..
went back work... still feeling sick.. maybe should get 2 days MC like what my dad says.
But that means my 90% attendance will be gone in a blink of an eye.
My producer said I could go back home rest once my work is done.
However, because Friday is the table-read, I have tons of work to do.
Print script, photocopy 11 copies.. bring go do binding..
ended work abt 7+ near 8pm.
dear waited for me and sent me home :)
and i cried on my way home too.
sighs. sighs sighs...
maybe that's why at this point of time now (29/10), i'm still sick. haha.
i overworked my body without plenty of rest. =x
went back home, slept a little early than usual.
27/10/06... friday..
table read session at Mediacorp.
they changed venue, so end up i went to work with dear. :)
if only it could be like that everytime.. hehe..
table read went quite well..
and that guy.. dono excited or happy that he saw his power ranger idol: jason chan.
hahaha..
felt hungry halfway the table-read.
and luckily, they give everyone 5min break.
went to get some sandwich and eat.
then by the time all end le, dear came to find me..
with a packet of M&M peanut.
thanks huh. haha.
isn't that gonna make both of us even more sick? lolx..
but heck.. what's done can't be undone. hehe..
then he later came back with a sandwich. :)
the exact same sandwich i ate. haha. thank you. =)
went back office.. with a flu.. =(
did the same things..
print script and photocopied remaining scripts for the artistes that didn't turn up.
sent for binding after that too.
and i knocked off abt 6pm. hehe.
went home, felt sleepy..
slept damn early can.
perhaps due to the effect of medicine..
28/10/06..saturday..
sick sick sick.. =(
still went out with dear anyway..
else i'll be sleeping at home whole day.
went marina square..
felt so tempted to eat all the yummy food. haha..
and he juz gotta pull me away. hehe..
i think my brain fell sick too hahahaha..
have been talking lotsa nonsense things to dear. hehe. =p
okay. feeling tired already.. shall sleep soon. hehe.
nitenite..
Tuesday, October 24, 2006 . 9:36 PM
today.. 24/10/06..tuesdaythe outing today with dear, my 2nd sis and her friend, Jing Wen is still alright.
Though there were some point of time me and dear was quite pissed. Haha.
But I guess, that's what usually happen bringing kids out huh? Hehe.
We went to vivo city.
Then had our lunch at Harbourfront Yoshinoya, had Haagen Daaz at vivo city as snacks.
Big budget man.
So broke now.
And I so couldn't bear dear to pay so much.
Went Bras Brasah Popular after that.
And dear had to leave halfway.
Sighs. Hehe.
23/10/06.. monday..
went work. did nothing much.
felt so sick.
damn..
totally no mood to eat.. no mood to do anything. argh!
went back sp at 5+ to take photos of classroom for this friday's cast reading.
and from this friday till mid-nov, i will have work to do!
double yay!
anyway, night time met dear den ate long johns silver for dinner.
he didn't eat coz he no appetite also hehe.
slept early anyway..
22/10/06.. sunday..
didn't went swimming..
stayed home played computer games...
then by lunch time.. damn..
aunt came.
so sickening..
hurt so much that i caused my mom can't go out with my dad to bring my 2nd sis for violin near Clarke Quay area. Haha.
out of nowhere, it just hurts so much like before.
sighs..
dear came over to teach my 3rd sis..
then nothing le..
can't remember much too. hehe..
21/10/06.. saturday...
stayed home watch tv.. find things eat.. play with my 2nd sis.
that's all hahaha...
20/10/06.. friday...
can't remember what i do also. hehe.
except that the office whole day only me. haha.
the rest went batam.
bored.
19/10/06.. thursday..
my producer is back! hahaha.
thought got things to do.. end up also nothing to do. so bored. =p
quite a bad and terrifying day also..
don't wish to say..
i know myself can le. hehe..
18/10/06.. wednesday..
bad bad day.
forget about it..
no wish to say either. hehe..
only 3 words:
i am sorry.
Tuesday, October 17, 2006 . 11:24 AM
let's back track to Saturday since I'm so free now. Haha.14-10-06... saturday... my birthday
went out with dear to celebrate. he treat seoul garden since he never got presents for me. Haha.
Actually is there's nothing else for him to buy for my birthday present. After that went to walk around at Bugis.
After that went back office run errand first then go vivo city.
It's so big and spacious, with some shops not even opened.
And someone saw the Liverpool Adidas jersey. Hehe.. $109 okays. Not cheap lor.
And that someone felt so tempted to buy. Haha.. And being the cheeky me, kept tempting him to buy lar buy lar. Haha.. Else next time no more liao. Hehe.. Otherwise is no more size or red colour le. Hahaha.
End up he never buy. hehe. Good boy..
Never give in to temptation. Wahaha...
He sent me home after that. Coz my sisters wanna cut cake. -_-''
15-10-06.... sunday...
went wild wild wet with my 2nd sis and her friends. Like nanny like that. Taking care of 3 kids. Lolz.. Quite fun lar. Then had mac for lunch. =)
Went home watched Princess Hours. Have been watching it almost everyday that's why night time seldom online. Hehe. =p
Dear came over to teach my 3rd sis. Had dinner then off he goes home. hehe.
Felt so tired can.. Feel like sleeping at night. End up, never watched Princess Hours. Hehe..
16-10-06... monday...
boring. did nothing again. kept playing games. but never mind. 2 days later which is Thursday, my supervisor will be back and I can ask for more work already. Hehehehe. I want to be busy busy busy rather than nothing to do. And tomorrow, will be back in SP for introduction meeting. Don't know what they want to do with that session either hahaha. =p
Had dinner with dear and joy at bugis. Ate kfc. hehe. Joy suggested one. First time hearing her say want eat fast food. Surprise surprise. hehe..
Went kino after that.
Saw some books I wanted to buy too. Hehe. Buthen don't know buy already my sister will read also anot. hehe. Get pay then say first. Hahaha.
Friday, October 13, 2006 . 11:39 AM
oh man, i'm dying of boredom.and hunger. haha.
at this time 11.40am. gracious me.
it's still early to have lunch. but with a grumbling stomach.
argh!
and i still have nothing to do at this moment.
how ah?
nothing to write for this week logbook.
sian ah..
everyone has something to do except me.
i want go filming also!
haiz.
and nobody's online now.
i think sher still got filming.
man... somebody save me can??
argH!
Wednesday, October 11, 2006 . 10:11 AM
bored bored bored.just changed another blogskin.
okay. this just goes to show how bored am i. hehe.
alone in the office at the moment.
the other colleague has to go home coz her son not feeling well.
and the other one dono coming what time either. hehe.
and tomorrow, i think i'll be alone again?
oh my goodness! how sad can it be??
whole week doing nothing.
argh!!
anyway, went home yesterday, settle down everything have dinner etc, then watched Princess Hours.
Going on a TV spree now. haha.
And the Prince Shin is so damn shuai.
Especially when he smiles.. Although he is such a meanie in that show. Haha.
Sunday going Wild Wild Wet with my sister. Hehe.
Yes. Just the 2 of us with one of her friend. Yayness. Perhaps, I shall treat her to some nice food after that? Hehe.
It always happens when we are out alone. =)
Tuesday, October 10, 2006 . 10:29 AM
i'm currently in the office.with nothing to do.
feel like sleeping too.
so bored bored bored.
*pouts*
i wish and hope for so many things.
like eating. go sentosa.
the temptation of food is even greater.
for i'm always getting hungry in the middle of the night.
and my stomach hurts lately.
gastric flu? stomachache?
don't know either.
happened too frequent that I can't differentiate gastric flu and stomachache. hahaha.
i also wish and hope that by the time itp ends, my mom will allow me to go on a holiday.
with my friends. hehehe.
then i can follow joy go HK. hehe.
and I will pull her go disneyland hohoho.. =p
anyway, still long way to go. haha.
so must start saving up first as a backup plan incase they say " you got money meh?" hehe.
=)
Sunday, October 08, 2006 . 10:10 PM
it's dumb thinking of those dumb things few days back.the ignorance he received, the heart-break he suffered (i think so lar)..
it's a wonder he didnt leave me alone..
thankew dear. =)
perhaps, i just want to be wilful again.
hehe.
or perhaps, i won't want to do it again. hehehe.
anyway, had a nice night last night.
went out to meet ppl to pass ferry ticket to go to batam.
then met dear at clementi for dinner.
went for sp musical at NUS UCC.
nice place, nice show, nice songs, nice acting.
everything is so nice...
and jeanine amazed us. by singing. hehehe.
overall, i think everyone did a great job.
hehe.
went home with leon chua after that. as in took same train home.
and that day, the haze was so bad that upon stepping out of UCC, not a single building can be seen and everywhere smells of smoke.
and by the time the train reaches tampines, there seems to be little haze.
perhaps the air in the west area ain't good hor? hehe.
by the time i reached home, it was 12.15am. so late. and first time so late too. hehe.
took fast shower then watched meteor garden 2 till 2+. hehe.
felt hungry while watching so go have cup noodle.
yum yum. hehe.
went swimming today.
and yes, the haze had already subsided.
yay..
hopefully it won't rise till so bad.
else my eyes will start itching. hehe.
Friday, October 06, 2006 . 11:02 PM
it's getting so hazy that the tall buildings can't be seen.stepped into my parent's room. looked out of the window.
practically can't see the trees anymore.
damn.
when will the haze stops?
it's irritating my eyes.
on the other hand, i'm getting quite lethargic lately.
even in the office, I also feel like sleeping.
sighs.
and every now and then, stomachache becomes so frequent and yet, nothing comes out.
what the hell is wrong?
and i'm getting fatter day by day.
gaining so much weight.
Is it time for exercise? Hehe..
8 days more..
Will he be working on that day?
I hope not.
sighs.
Why can't his department give them their roster a week before, like Joy's department?
Then I won't always have to ask what time he starts and ends work.
sighs.
I think I'm getting older and older. Keep sighing non-stop.
And getting a little more vulgaric. Always having the word damn in this blog.
argh!
Thursday, October 05, 2006 . 11:35 PM
I'm sad.I'm unhappy.
I'm thinking of many many things.
I'm not sure of the future.
I'm not even sure of the present.
I'm not looking forward to the day ITP ends
I'm hoping we are still in Year 2.
I'm praying that promises made won't be broken.
I'm wishing that what I heard will not come true.
I'm worried that things will change one day. Not now. But one day.
I'm envious of the happenings around me.
I'm not looking forward to MY birthday.
Pardon me if everything above sounds so negative.
But I'm really hoping, wishing and praying that what I hear will not come true, and that promises made won't be broken.
Sighs.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006 . 10:50 PM
ITP has officially started for everybody as on monday 2nd october 2006.Some are enjoying their work, some are not.
Take dear for instance, I think he's enjoying a lot. And joy, she's not enjoying it as much coz she got nothing to do at the moment too. Hehehe.
And sher.. she's getting used to the place and enjoying it more and more too.
And aiwee, filming starts next week and she'll be busy. But at least, she has things to do.
Rather than the other time in UDC, where I got practically nothing to do except location scouting.
Sighs. How lucky can these people get?
1st two days weren't fun for me coz I've seriously got nothing to do.
And till now, the 3rd day of official ITP period, I'm so busy like a bee.
Running here and there.
Emailing here and there.
Calling here and there.
Conference meetings here and there.
All because my Producer went on leave.
It's fun doing things like that. And I enjoyed it today.
Not because my Producer ain't in and I'm sort of taking over everything.
But because I've finally got things to do.
And today's my first time working till 8pm.
And from now till November, I'll be really really busy...
With all the voice casting, all the contacting of the people, actual voice recording etc etc.
and then in 2 month time, I've finished ITP. Hahahaha.
Time really passes very fast.
And by then when ITP ends, perhaps I'll continue with the company or I shall go get a part time job. Cool huh? Hehehe.
And in May, we'll be graduating soon!
Yay!!!
Monday, October 02, 2006 . 10:06 PM
Maybe I should just leave this world quietly.Even though I will be breaking dear's heart.
But for once, this type of feeling came back to me all of a sudden.
I felt frustrated.
I felt irritated.
I feel no meaning in life.
I feel so alone.
I feel that even when I'm gone, my parents won't care.
I'm hurt by the words my mom used.
I disliked the way she assume things.
the way she exaggerates things.
sighs.
perhaps i should really end my life.
just to make her happy.
really. it's been so long i thought of things like that.
i really don't know what to do.
she says i'm not happy just because she says me.
but has she ever pondered why i'm giving her such an attitude?
reason is simple.
because she said me for nothing.
just straight after scolding my sisters.
damn.
what kinda mother is this.
it's not even due to work stress that i'm giving such an attitude.
it's YOU that seems to be driving me crazy.
really. i had enough.
yaya, why is it other people my age knows how to be independent and I can't.
One thing is YOU never allowed me to do any cooking at all. Saying that I'll make the kitchen oily and stuffs. What YOU expect me to do?
Why is it other people my age can learn and listen to their parents, but I can't?
For gracious sake, I did listen to YOU.
Just that YOU never realise it at all.
No doubt I may be giving the whatever attitude, but I still listened.
And when I go out, I did report with whom, go where and stuffs. What else YOU want?
At least I came back home right?
I seriously don't know where go wrong.
Perhaps I should see a counsellor?
A family counsellor?
I'm having a hard time communicating with YOU again.
Just like the past.
It hurts.
Who knows I cried till my eyes became puffy?
Who knows that the past memories are returning to me?
Who knows that the scar years ago are opening up once again?
Nobody knows but ME!
Who knows what exactly I feel like doing now?
Nobody.
YOU never tried to understand me at all.
Just because YOU brought me up means YOU understand me?
NO! NEVER!
I've reached my tolerance level.
I had enough!
*cries*
Sunday, October 01, 2006 . 11:29 PM
20th month.supposedly to be a happy girl today, but i'm not.
so much thanks to... [don't wish to say]
watched rob-b-hood at lido today.
nice and funny movie.
the whole cinema is like full of laughters. hehe.
but after that, i'm never laughing again.
this time, it's all thanks to.... [my ulcer]
tomorrow, everyone's starting itp.
the day that i dread for has come.
wonder if we'll have time to meet up during the weekdays.
sighs.
so much promises made, but still.. i'm kinda scared..
i'm seriously dreading everything now.
i) i don't like coming home for these few weeks.
ii) i don't like to be nagged and scolded for nothing.
iii) i don't like to flare up at my parents for nothing either.
iv) and i don't like the idea of not seeing him during the weekdays.
i don't know how long i can hold on for i, ii and iii.
It's getting onto my nerves lately. sighs.
what the hell is wrong, i asked myself.
i didn't do anything wrong, but why am i getting this kinda treatment.
damn!
anyway, happy 20th month dear.
had a happy time with you today even though i'm a little moody too :)