Monday, January 31, 2005 . 1:34 PM

hmn.. wonder lately what's up with my mummy.. read his blog.. feel that something is wrong.. but he don't want to say.. haiz.. don sad la mummy.. cheer up.. and who say I want to 'go' soon.. even if I ' go' le.. will still pei you crap de mahz.. ur nu er not so bad de ok? remember, I say I will stick to you? cheer up.. your nu er won't leave you alone de lahz.. I very good de.. =) I won't wang en fu yi de hor.. hehe.. wah, I like xiao yan zi like that.. use cheng yu.. hehe.. don sad le la..

haiz.. today see KP and JH quarrel again. Felt abit scared. What if one day he's like that too? *sighs* but I will still stick to my decision. Just for once, I'm willing to forsake everything. My fears and all. But never will I forsake my good mummy. Don't want mummy to be lonely.. hehe..


PS: WZ, jia you! Don't give up easily.. so many people supporting you.. Alright?

Sunday, January 30, 2005 . 8:38 PM

Felt as though my decision has been made. But I’m still hesitating. Can I overcome this barrier? Well, I just gotta be brave and overcome this barrier right? What mummy say seems right. I have been hurt before, so I will know what to do and not to do. Does this mean I should give it a try? *shrugs* There will be like so many obstacles to overcome if I really try. It’s just like previous r/s. There are so many questions is my head that I wanted to ask, but I just never did. Don’t know why too. *sighs*

I wanna go to the beach for a breather again, to listen to the sound of the tranquil waves and the sight of the sun setting. The reflection of the sunset in the sea. Everything will just be so nice and so beautiful. I tell myself that one day, I will find someone who will accompany me to watch the beautiful sunset. But till now, I found no one. So sad right? Actually I almost got to see the sun setting last week. If not for those people who keep hurrying us to go play pool. *hmphz* Haha. (only person/s involved will know) haha

Saturday, January 29, 2005 . 10:12 PM

Pon java practical ytd. Go lab and burn my video but so much problems. Then map to another comp then can burn la. Then do my report which is like take ages to be done until sher and weizheng gotta help me crap to reach 500words. Haha! Then only go for last 20mins of java lecture. Haha! KP and JH reached class, spicer end the class le. SO funny. Hehe.

After school went kbox with aiwee and sher. SO fun. Then me and sher sang tian gao di hou halfway aiwee dono press wad. Then the 2 of them kept singing 3 same songs. Then aiwee bought elva karaoke and we went her house. They sing and I used her comp. Sorry ah, nv pei you all feng. Hehe.. Until 7 then sher parents fetched us back. I alighted at eunos there. Thank you sher.. =)

On the way back, mummy and I were settling something. Regarding my things. Then I found my answer. My guess has been proven right. What a clever little fishy. Hehe. Think alot about that. All I thought was just one thing. He looks very alike to the other past r/s which lasted 11mth.(Guess my sec sch frenz will know who he is) The way he cared and all. So similar. But well, that's the past. Now, I will really just like nature take its own course. Whatever the outcome is, I myself also don't know, as things are always changing.

Gotta thank my mummy so much for his help. Finally it's like one load off my mind. (Even though there's no pressure or whatsoever from him.) I shall just let nature take its own course. Shall depend on how things progresses too. Shall slowly upgrade just like what mummy say. Haha. Like me and mummy. Lolz. From stranger upgrade to frenz then to mummy-nu er-relationship. Hahaha!

Friday, January 28, 2005 . 10:00 AM

What do you call someone who buys you food when you have gastric pain?
What do you call someone who helps you with things that you don't know or you are just too tired to continue doing it?
What do you call someone who asks questions that are somehow involved in a relationship?What do you call someone who suddenly just care so much for you and all?
Just a normal friend? Someone who likes you? Or what?
*ponders*

Was my guess right all along? Only that I never really go and think about it.
Somehow or rather, I felt my guess was right. What everyone said seems so true. Even mummy thinks that way too. Well, the only obstacle left is the knot inside my heart. Questions has been coming into my mind at times. Shall I continue to wait for something that is impossible?(I just know it without even trying.)
Well, impossible things normally don't become possible, right? And since I know it's impossible, why still hope for a miracle?
*ponders*
How many times have I been pondering over this question? Not once, I know. *sighs*
What should I do?

Mummy asked me the same question. All I got to say is that, having good feelings for that person does not means you gotta like the person right? Unless some circumstances changes it. It might be possible and it might not be possible. It really depends.
Sher asked me a rather funny question. Haha! How can it be possible manz? That's crazy can? Being on good terms with the other party and the other party even knows what's wrong with me does not define liking the person too. It's just so senseless. Similarly, I will still say the same thing. Unless some circumstances changes. But that will never happen. Haha!

Perhaps, maybe, I fall in love too easily. That's why I get hurt easily too. The logic is just that simple. But, unknowingly, the hurt you get doesn't seems to go away. Even if I were to try, there will still be this door that I can't open. The door that contains all the hurt I have had before. I never wanted to learn to try getting into a relationship now, reason being I'm afraid of getting hurt. But I still fell in love again. So ironical, don't you think so? *sighs*

What should I do? I am in a dilenma now. But I know that I don't want to be controlled by going into a r/s. And the same problems will cropped up just like previous r/s. Or perhaps, my guess was wrong? You can't distrust a woman's intuition, could you? There were 4 options for me to choose. And I could have chose the first or second option but I did not. Instead I chose the last which to me, is a safer route. The route of not having to face up to reality?

Tell me what should I do?

Thursday, January 27, 2005 . 3:44 PM

yOohOo.. video gonna finish le.. so happy.. buthen next week need to hand in stsc grp comic. sian diao.. haven finalised which story.. haha.. take one thing at at time bahz, like what von tell me ytd. I'm always so gan chiong about assignment datelines and all.. that's me I guess. *laughs*
Hmn.. ytd was talking about how everyone were getting along did we? Lolz.. most of them are attached le, except the 2 of us. Haha.. Well, there's no hurry in finding the right person. =)

I'm so damn lucky today. Late for audio lecture in the morning and guess what? NO Tim Teo! Haha.. He go London dono for what. Lol.. very lucky rite? Then stsc see the movie clip again. Catch nothing manz.. must see whole movie den now mahz.. den after that want to go break le den wormy asked me for his cd. Of coz I never give him yet lahz... don feel like giving him back. So troublesome ytd lor.. *hmphz* Den we went to 2034 to do video. So sickening. My comp is being used by my mummy. He doing his maths assignment. So idoit lor.. don wanna change comp and use.. haha.. After that, he changed to the comp beside me and use. yAY! so good. haha.. then I do my video.. then he sae sae sae.. lOlz.. dotx lahz.. buthen got learn new things too. Hehe.. Then see his video.. so funny lor.. Haha.. Then that stupid wormy came to get back his disc. He threaten to pull out the mouse if I don give him back lor... how sickening can he geT?

Skipped 1hr+ of audio. (Like I say, tim teo NOT HERE!) so can skip lor.. abit bad I noe, but I don't care. Coz josel they all still in lab. Hehe.. oh ya, kept grumbling to my mummy too. Haha.. Poor him.. *laughs* Who ask him is my mummy so no choice lor.. Haha.. haiyo.. now so many people noe about me and alan thingy.. so rubbish lor.. it's not even true.. then keep suaning like hell.. even now those 02 people other than sher and aiwee also noe lor.. so sickening..

Wednesday, January 26, 2005 . 11:57 PM

The sunset seems to be the most beautiful thing I even seen. These few days go back at 6+ always can see the sun going to set from our school. The colour seems so nice and all. Been bugging sher to pei me go west coast one of these days to see sunset, she don't want. *hmphz*
Well, nvm lor.. next time I ask my future bf pei me go see.. hahaS! wonder when will that be manz..

`Someday I hope we will watch the sunset together`
dono why lately my maid alwys wake me up 3hrs before sch starts instead of the usual 2hrs. make me so tired only. haiyo.. like today, wake me up at 5.30am when I can actually wake up at 6.30am. so in the end i dragged myself out and do things slowly. haha. and I'm late for MATHS! wahaha.. I reached school at 8.50am like that, and the lecturer haven start class lor.. shud noe I go in later.. LOlz! first time I go school so late siaz... haha.. too tired le.. guess didn't slp well last nite bahz..

den had CD. played the blindman, to be in pairs. So josel and me together and WZ and KP. Then we scissor paper stone see who be blindman.. I won! Of coz I didn't get to be the blindman then. Haha! We are to lead them around t17. Ms Chee say to bring up or down one level but later call for non-blindmen for meeting, saying that we can bring them where we want to. Haha! So me and WZ brought KP and josel up den down and did lots of stupid stuffs. Haha. So funny.. can't believe it lor.. den later reached classrm le, last few pair is CK and teddybear. Then cox that wormy with teddybear, so we give instructions then teddybear blur blur de.. dono listen to who. Then later that worm so funny lor. Go ask them be zombie. Haha! We alwys have fun during CD lessons. And next wk shall be CNY celebrations during CD. Yay!!

break time go lab do dvid. this is like the how many days I have been skipping break manz. Haiz.. so hungry and my gastric hurts alot. guess my gastric has been the cause of my moodiness lately. ever since monday it starts to hurt, I have been like that. haiz.. after break is java. actually I got listen de. buthen dono why suddenly I so sianz.. so take out paper and draw.. den from then I just become quiet liaoz... don feel like talking or wadever. so when we go 2034 for stsc, there are like so many ppl, den later gary wormy they wanna use the comp den I let them use and go out to take a breather. I just need to be alone then at that time.

So, while outside, I msged my mummy.. but he nv reply.. until 3.15pm lik that.. by then gary they come out le.. think they quite scared cox they thought they make me sad. Haha! But don't worry, it's not you all fault. Overall, I did not go for stsc class lor.. haha.. and I sat outside till abt 4pm like that? Even when sher, aiwee, alan and josel they all come talk to me, I just quiet.. only my mummy cheer me up den I ok le.. haha.. abit mad rite, you might think. But I really dono why also.. haha... weird.. and worst is I cried a little too.. hehe.. anyway, then go back 2034 edit my video.. with the help of alan.. haha.. so stupid lor.. keep kana suan.. dotx de.. den sher fren-janice came to help weizheng film his video.. happy le lor someone. hehe.. oh ya, guess everyone can finish the video by tml.. 3 cheers for us..

**PS: sorry guys.. today maybe I just need to be alone. Really sorry wor..

Tuesday, January 25, 2005 . 10:20 PM

aftnn after class went aiwee hse den came back school at 4.30pm. so sickening. nv really did much. couldn't care much le.. guess I too tired le bahz.. plus my gastric start again.. must be last nite till this afternoon never eat thats why.. haiz.. till now, still hurts..

went home at 6+ den reach home at 8. went to tampines mall de popular get things for my sister.. so heavy manz.. cox i brought home the MD too. then sae wang liang. (my grandson's fren) he helped me carry all the way i alighted. thanz alot ah! hehe.. reached home go bath and then eat.. like no appetite to eat.. must be overly-hungry le.. but in the end I just force myself to eat. Cannot slp on empty stomach le.. haha.. then tried out the MD explore how to record sound.

haiz. I now dono what happened to me. Am I too stressed? coz I'm beginning to feel the stress le.. and I'm tired too.. but guess from tml nite I can't slp early anymore. Gotta rush dvid at nite even though I did in school too. haiz..

Save ME! I really need a break. I need a breather to breathe. I wanna shout out loud! I wanna cry! AHHHH!!! haiz.. maybe I will be okay in a while after crying tonight bahz..
dead! just realised I have forgotten to hand in the audio assignment 2 sample clips to tim teo ytd. die le lah.. and today i nv bring.. so shit lor.. argH!

slept so late nite. 12+. den this morning dono why my mom mad sia.. call me wake up at 6.30am when i can wake up at 7.30am!!! then in the end cause me to be so tired now.. *yawns* came to sch with sher. supposedly pei her zhui xing but in the end dono why nv appear. she must be so sad now. haha. den we almost late. i reached class at 9.45am. lucky haven mark attendance yet haha. so lucky. den continue my dvid.. do till sian le den go online.. haha.. and ya, that wormy so idoit lor.. haha.. make my hand pain only... haha.. haiz.. sian lah.. later still must wait till so long den can do video again..
am i imagining far far too much? they say a woman's sixth sense or rather intuition is quite accurate. *shrugs* it shall never be like the other time. well, I won't allow myself to even if that happens. Let's jsut hope that what I thought/imagined be wrong.

Save me!

Monday, January 24, 2005 . 11:23 PM

been in sch for 14 hours.. morning gems met aiwee cox sher not going for her gems. den in class talked about dating, wedding and funeral etiquette.. haha.. the dating part was fun.. lolz.. but nah, wasn't listening. was smsing. hahahah.. den pei aiwee walked back to t20. went to av store to submit the form den aiwee returned the MD. den walked back to t17 again. haha.. so free mahz.. lolz

ate ice-kachang in fc4. haha.. again! lolz. den go back t20 for stsc. too tired. supposedly to think of grp comic strip, but in the end me, kp, josel and wz there so tired. almost fell asleep, until they show the ms swan movie clip. haha.. was so funny. then had maths tutorial. sux. so sian lor.. cant imagine it.. haha.. after that go collect MD with weizhen.

went to 2034 and do audio.. got alan help me so don need scared.. haha.. at first capturing got problem. den change comp. den got prob again. den james come in. den see and can work lor. haha.. den when i capture.. dono why my files all offline de. den only alan capture for me, all ok. the comp must have preferred alan to me. wahaha.. xie xie ni alan.. den later he teach me some things like editing. and hehe.. i noe how to edit le.. only some still need his help. den when abt 6.30pm reach. got one lecturer chase us out.. sickening.. then call jen ang, she nv pick up. den josel call meng lai and tell her abt it. den in the end, jen ang still don care us. kaoz. den heard 2035 closing soon. wat the hell lor.. but close at 8. even if close at 8 so what? our files all in the medea drive manz.. den while waiting at 2035, we stare at the lectuter there and do alot of funny things until he let us go in.. haha.. so funny manz.. then we continued doing our own work. do till 9+ den go home.. and ya, suddenly keep talking to erina.. lolz.. lend her my cd-rw disc too.. lolz..

reached home about 10.30pm. so late manz.. first time like that eh.. lucky got my dad to fetch me home.. else will be even later.. haha.. now, feeling so hungry and tired.. haiz.. zhe me ban???

Saturday, January 22, 2005 . 10:53 PM

today went to film for video. met sher at bedok interchange at 12.30pm. Then alan and weizheng late lor. came at 1pm! meet me, sher and irwin wait for the both of them. Haha. But anyway, we bought our food while waiting den when they come, can straight away go to sac(sher's sec sch-St Anthony Canossian). Then at her sch, we met up with sher's cousins, her parents, cassandra and her other sec sch frenz. Helped in her filming too! Hehe.. And I got a very good role huh? The ugly or weird gal? Lolz.. got drawn on the face.. *laughs* (PS: video finish le must send me and let me see! Haha) then in her sch shun bian do some of my shots too. and oh ya, irwin got sher's fren (janice) number. and weizheng couldn't get. Hahahahaha.. try harder lah weizheng! then later dono why alan suddenly asked wanna get sher's mom no. Haha.. then irwin too. but he said that hp no space le.. haha.. so funny they all..

After that, me, sher and alan went to sher's house. Then weizheng go irwin's house.
Sher house so fun! Haha.. especially her room! LOlz.. got alot of winnie the pooh den got so many things lor.. haha.. so nice.. next time married must have a room like that too! HahaS! film and took some shots at her house then we proceed to east coast park. Sher went to meet irwin and weizheng to play pool, and left me and alan to go east coast park. so dotx lor they all.. haha.. only we 5 people noe.. haha.. *winks* haha, after pai finish at east coast park, went to meet them at parkway. we lost our way.. but eventually with the intelligence of fishes, we found the correct way and yup, met them to play pool. after that is 8.30pm like that leh, den we go the hawker centre have dinner. kana disturbed by irwin and weizheng manz.. thank alot huh? haha.. but I noe they just joking de lahz.. haha... used to their lameness le.. Lolz!

reached home at 10+. when I said that I will be home at 8+ haha.. nvm lahz.. so weird this time nv kana scolding.. haha.. so fun today.. haha.. well well, seems I'm interacting more with sher and her buddy class rather than my class and my buddy class huh? Haha.. Anyway, gotta thank alan for being the lead cast in my video wor.. hehe.. thankz irwin and weizheng too.. and of cox, sher also.. and her parents.. hehe..

Friday, January 21, 2005 . 11:13 PM

today damn tired.. cox i woke up so early.. cox gotta go my cousin house dono for wad thingy also.. haha.. saw my cousin who stayed in Australia. She came back alone, and she's like 1 or 2 yr older than me? Hehe.. She very pretty now.. well well, things are pretty different between Australia and Singapore huh? She even got a driving license too! Haha.. So pei fu her.. hehe.. then after go cousin house, go back home.. by then already 3pm. Then do the maths.. do till 5+ den go dinner.. den walk walk a while den come home bath and go take my video camera.. hehe.. so nice.. must take extra precautions with it.. LOlz!! well.. tml gonna do video.. with the help of weizheng and alan and sher.. thankz people.. haha..

saw wormy blog on wad they did today.. so funny.. haha.. check out his blog man! Hehe..

Thursday, January 20, 2005 . 10:03 PM

damn! audio assignment 2 how to do? when to do? haiz.. anyway, so happy today. hehe.. maybe tml shall be meeting kf to take things from him.. haha.. and i really need that thing now.. haha.. well.. it all depends.. hehe..

sianz lah.. nowadays always come online den all busy, away or whatever crap.. and then seeing all got modes, i go play my incredibles le.. haha.. haiz.. lately feel as if I'm getting further from frenz I noe in other classes.. Am i drifting away or are they drifting away? or is it because of assignments that's why it's like that? *sighs*
he made my nite a happy nite to sleep
have to admit that last nite am really in a lousy mood.
lied to so many many people
saying that I am not in a bad mood.
even though if I say that I'm unhappy,
what will happen? what will they do?
*shrugs*

haha, he told me that last time he took video production too and web programming.
weird isn't it? DBIT people taking that. hmn.. haha
told me about what he did for his video.
can die of laughter manz. haha
noe what he did? *laughs*
he did a video of normal love story. hehe..
the director is him. Haha.. thought he will be the lead cast. wahaha..

geez.. my mood has been lifted up a little since last nite after the chat. *laughs*
that's the power of falling for someone you like? Hahaha!
well, liking someone in the dark may not be a bad thing afterall huh?

Wednesday, January 19, 2005 . 10:48 PM

Do I look as if I am in a bad mood now? duh! forget it manz.. like I say, no one understands.. even if they manage to understand, what can they do? just forget it.. or just pretend that I have never existed today..
chose my electives for next yr already. took vidp and wwwp. which after much thoughts during maths lecture.

just leave me alone for the time being.
no one will ever understand how I feel now..
not you, not him, not my mummy, not them.
not anyone. except me.
I'm feeling so lost.
so tired.
pls, just leave me alone.

i don't need anyone to care about me.
at least not for now.
just let me wander in my own world alone.
no intrusion, nothing at all.

i'm really so tired of being like that.
to be alone
i need someone to care
but there weren't at the point of time
when i needed them.
tell me.
what should i do?

--lost--

Tuesday, January 18, 2005 . 10:05 PM

A sense of fear suddenly came upon me. The coldness of the fear just seem not being able to go away. Haven't been feeling like that for a very long time. Seeing my youngest sister being caned hard by both my parents made me scared. If anything has got to be the cause, stubborness it is that caused her being caned. It used to be me 10 yrs back,only that only my mom did that. Same stubborness too. Well, at least now I know how stubborn I am last time. *laughs* It's really kinda dumb to think back 10 yrs ago,but it really brought back memories ok? No wonder I never really got along with my mom that well from pri sch till poly. Haha! That's life isn't it? Hope that doesn't happen to my sisters. One is enough to create trouble for them already. Haha!
My mood lately hasn't really been that good either. I can be laughing in school but once I'm back home, everything changes. I just don't talk much except to see and snoop around what my sisters are doing and then just say them. Bad sister huh? *laughs* I am not actually. Haha! Well, let's just hope that my mood do improves a few days later huh? Haha!

Dreams are a big part of our Lives
and You must do whatever it takes
to make them a Reality;
by the plans you make,
the course you take,
and the things you do.

Don't dwell on past mistakes.
Leave yesterday behind,
along with all it's problems,
worries and doubts.
Realize you can't
change the past,
but you can start
a new tomorrow.
Don't try to do
everything at once;
take one step at a time.

Don't ever be afraid
to try the Impossible
no matter what
others may think.
Remember you are Unique
in your own special way.
Don't ever stop Dreaming!
Don't ever stop wanting
what's right for you!

Monday, January 17, 2005 . 10:06 PM

today started off quite badly cox early morning kana scolded for nothing.. wth lah.. then later in gems class, wah! so suay lor.. the lecturer called me and weiliang to be model for the class, cox we learning on how a guy and gal stand up, walk and sit down.. so dot lor.. den still say what.. perfect dono what thing la.. haha.. want details ask aiwee can le.. haha.. den keep kana suan lor.. thankz alot manz.. but haha.. aiyah don care also.. lolx..

then had java. oh no! it's java! hahaha.. how stupid can i get? lolz.. java sux! lolz!! but ok la.. i nv listen in class thus feel lik slping.. then after that went to find cher to get the dv cam and go back for maths.. boring! hear one ear in the other out can le.. haha.. den break! woohoO! only me and KP eat, josel fasting again.. den after that we eat finish, we discussed our CD den go for class. haha.. stsc feel like slping while watching the video clips. dono why I feel so tired lately.. die ah! how?? haha, but nv slp la.. cox get to see some lame clips.. haha.. den after that is maths tutorial.. wah, sian manz.. so easy to do lah can? wahahA!

den after class go find sher den later go find cher again. she doing her dbms.. haha.. but anyway, went home together.. haha.. take pics again.. lolz.. haha! sher, go find the cable lahz!! den all the pics can send us!! haha!!

Sunday, January 16, 2005 . 10:09 PM

today is just like any normal sunday. But only difference is that I slept for 15 hours! Can you believe it? Haha! Watched the 2nd leg of tiger cup -Singapore against Indonesia. yOohOo! Singapore won! 2-1.

haiz, guess mummy see through me ytd about my nick and also thru my blog. Well, all I have to say is: It's nothing serious. Not first time anyway. Regarding who it is referring to.. I also won't say. I felt like crying many times when I'm sleeping. But I guess, because I was really too tired, I just fell asleep without much thinking about anything.

Help me, save me. Tell me. What am I suppose to do? I can't help myself at all. I'm lost. In my world. I can't see the light around. Seems like going into a depression huh? Well, I really shouldn't have think too much. Just keep a happy and free mind.

Saturday, January 15, 2005 . 10:18 PM

haiz. what a good saturday huh? staying home sleeping and slacking and watching tv whole day long. felt kinda bored lor.. duh.. had too much of feelings in me suddenly. the feeling of loneliness once again. nothing but just so sudden, I felt that I've cared far far too much about things that doesn't concern me. Well, what have I gotta say then? NOTHING! This week everyone has been rushing for assignments, and can I say I have been neglected? Neglected by everyone? Even those in my family? I don't know. *shrugs*

**Left alone again.. I hate this!! Just feel like crying now.. **

Friday, January 14, 2005 . 9:43 PM

Finally my STSC assignment is done. Audio has been long completed. Therefore, today those that needed to be handed in is completed. Came to school with cher and sher. Crap in the train. Especially when cher thought of one whacky story for me about this eyeball who is living on the hill. Then one day, eyeball rolled downhill and hit the well. Blood came gushing out. Then along came hand. Hand saw eyeball and eyeball asked hand to help him as he is dying soon due to lack of blood. Seeing eyeball going to die, hand cannot jian si bu jiu so he picked up eyeball and walked back. The story very look alike like the happy tree friend rite? Haha. Anyway, reached school at 8.35am. Haha, so little people in lab lor.. can you believe it? And we did not do java in lab. We completed the storyboards and all. Haha. Print report and cover page etc. Nobody got the mood to listen to java during lecture too. Haha! And spicer was so funny.

After that went ps with sher to get the movie tickets. Then we go and eat and wait for cher to join us. When she came, most of the time we were crapping around. Haha, so long never sit down and crap le. Then after that go watch My Brother. A very nice show. Not bad. It was funny at certain parts and sad at the ending. And oh ya, there are a lot of violent words: fcuk, asshole, damn, son of a ***** etc. And cher cried! Haha. Okay lahz, all 3 of us cried at one part where I think the brother died? Haha.. let's go watch another nice show next time again! Oh ya, when going to ps that time, met up with weiliang at mrt there cox he say he wearing his ncc uniform today. Haha! Then later for nothing kana suan by sher and aiwee. Thankz alot huh? Make me so paiseh lor. So sickening.
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Think today mummy, wormy they not going to be online. All go for their sec sch orientation camp. Sian diaoz.. haha. And ya, mummy dono what happen today also.. think overwork bah.. sher told me that he ytd listened to all their audio to ensure all can play before burning into the disc, and plus that time he also rushing stsc. so ke lian. mummy ah, take care hor..go back home earlier if still not feeling well lor.. although I know you can't see it lahz. Haha!

Thursday, January 13, 2005 . 2:22 PM

*shrugs* what am I suppose to do now? I'm so bored!! Ah!!!! Went to school for audio and stsc lecture den come back home liaoz. Just go school for 2hrs only lOR!! And I'm like so tired but just can't sleep. Stayed up late last night to finish drawing the stsc thingy and now I'm only left with my stsc report. Haha! Finally what I thought that I couldn't finish doing has been completed. I'm so relief! Now, I'm just left with Maths assignment and dvid. And guess next week will be a busy week for me. gotta stay back to do Maths, gotta discuss what we gonna do for CD, need to start filming den friday being a public holiday, I have to go to my cousin house dono do what.. sianz..

These 2 days (ytd and the day before ytd), I'm so happy. chatted with kf online.. and ytd was the longest time I spent chatting with him.. haha.. complained to him about the assignments thingy.. then complain about java and all.. haha! well, he'll be back on april 7. I think they coming back for briefing and after that, they won't be back in SP anymore. So sad.. =(

I ain't myself today. Not sure why too. Something just seems to be bothering me today. Haven found the cause of it. Haha.. well, maybe when I know it, I will say tell you. Haha!

**you raised my hopes up but will it be dashed one day?**

Wednesday, January 12, 2005 . 2:22 PM

haha, take the chance to blog since I got nothing to do now.. haha.. so sickening lah, wake up so early today. first is 5.45am my maid woke me up. den later at 6am my mom wake me up.. den i slp a while more lah.. still early.. den in the end, i nv slp le.. just lie down stare blankly.. den wake up lor.. haha.. reach sch exactly 8.30am.. haha.. den so bored so msg sher lor.. haha.. the effect of after happy post is still in me during morning.. haha.. and now no more le lahz.. haha. my battery flat le.. wanna slp liaoz..

hehe.. cd was so fun! play the egg game we played during CBC camp.. haha.. but abit different lahz.. coz this time got balloon..haha.. too bad la, our egg broke.. hahaha.. den wormy and JH grp egg nv break.. good for them.. haha.. then before we left, we take class pic buthen after wanted to ready liaoz, CK haven come in den the camera flash go off le.. so haha.. this time no CK. nvm, next week. and later on too.. wahaha.. haiz.. now so hungry.. nv eat lunch..

Tuesday, January 11, 2005 . 10:46 PM

haha.. so happy now.. tml will be smiling to myself le.. haha.. not to the extend of losing concentration lahz.. haha, well, it depends.. LOLZ!! hehe.. =)

**just a short little while and I'm contented.. **
came back home so early.. so sickening.. haha.. anyway, went home with sher then saw cher they all going for gems.. haha.. so sad.. till 5pm.. wahaha.. den on the way to dover mrt station, crap with sher obviously.. haha.. cant imagine me doing that.. hahaha.. den later saw mummy and his class gals.. haha.. den he actually talked to me and ask me why return him his book.. haha.. hor hor.. now i noe why he lend gary.. lOlx. so that tml gary can bring his book for him.. haha.. very clever hor. . haha.. den sher complained say why i talked to mummy.. wahaha.. why can't I? haha.. okay, I'm obviously too hyper today.. for no reason.. lolx.. only pei sher see backview of ****** also not my kf.. haha.. well.. hehe.. let's just hope that there will be a miracle one day.. haha..

I'm still hanging on to my hopes.. But my hopes are not that high now.. been dashed by what jimmy said.. haha.. haiya, what's yours will be yours.. it just depends on your fate now..
haha. so rush today.. dono why also.. cox me and sher got task to do? wahaha... so funny lor we all.. can't imagine it!! haha.. waking up so early and waiting at the platform for just one tiny glimpse of that person.. haha.. how stupid can we get right? wahaha.. and we are like so early for school!!!! and den pei sher walked to her class cox gotta take sth from mummy.. den later wah. he so sickening lahz.. pass me the cd den ask me bring book up to 2034.. and I have already 2 books with me and bringing up one more means 3!! so i just grumbled and haha, he carry the 3 books for me up to 2034 of cox.. what a good mummy. wahaha..
**PS: sher, 2 weeks later let's try again.. haha.. thankz ah mummy.. help me bring up the books..haha.. ur nu er very lazy.. haha..

now video, watching dono wad clips.. so funny.. haha.. laugh like hell now lahz.. haha.. and it's so cold here too.. lazy take out jacket too.. haha..

Monday, January 10, 2005 . 10:39 PM

reached sch freaking early lor. reach the gems class den still gotta wait for ppl.. haha.. den today gems aiwee keep kana the lecturer use as an example.. wahaha.. make her so shy.. haha... lOlz! then after that we all went mac eat as usual and i kana suan too.. out of a sudden in the train by sher and in class by aiwee la.. thankz manz! haha..

argh! today like no mood to ting ke.. dono why.. from java all the way to break time.. only den later stsc got a bit of mood to do things le.. and haha. i changed my stsc idea.. lolz.. gonna use that this time.. hehe.. den during maths tutorial got maths quiz.. so shit.. got 3 out of 5.. haha.. nvm.. haha.. den go home! yay!!

and then on the way back, kept argueing with that wormy when to do the maths thingy.. i wanna thurs and he fri.. so idoit..haha.. both day end at 12 mah.. stupid leh.. haha.. aiyah, anyway.. don care them also.. haha.. sure gotta find one day and do also mahz.. wahaha.. hehe.. I have recovered!! yAY!!

**PS: today sher they end at 12.30pm but nvm, thurs my turn to end at 12pm. haha..

Sunday, January 09, 2005 . 8:36 PM

haiz.. missing someone now.. haiz.. and I am still sick.. argH! so sickening.. did nothing today at all.. dono why.. wake up and watched tv till 1pm then slack around in the house walking around doing nothing and finding things to eat.. haha.. sounds a little stupid huh? lolx.. anyway.. was watching my fair princess 3... so sad the show.. haha.. guess, tonite gonna sleep early again.. since tml still got gems.. sicko gems..

ytd slp whole day lahz.. haha.. nothing to do so slp lor.. sian manz.. everyday the posts like all the same.. no wonder mummy also seldom blog le.. haha.. lazy mummy.. lOLZ!! guess my msn nick now abit of problem huh? [ShU`hUi] - [holding on to my own determination.. will a miracle ever happen?] - well, can i really hang on to my determination to wait for april 19? it may well pass very fast but i somehow felt abit unrealistic hanging on to this hope.. anyway let's hope a miracle do happens..

Friday, January 07, 2005 . 4:23 PM

so sick manz.. down with flu and cough now..haiz.. den ytd before slp take the medicine and i went to slp le.. until this morning don feel like waking up.. bt lucky got morning call.. haha.. lessons end so early today.. came back home nothing to do so online until now lor.. haiz.. wad a boring lifestyle.. anyway, surfed friendster and read ppl's blog.. hmn.. found so many things.. nah, shan't say them out.. haha.. maybe there's a third eye.. so.. haha..

anyway, seems like what annsoon sae is true..haha.. every tag also sure got squabbles between that slimy worm and me..haha.. and all whose fault? annsoon's fault obviously rite? haha.. everything also blame that poor mummy.. haha..k lah, don bully him lah.. later threaten say disown again..haha..

arGH! so bored.. audio finish le..now is my storyboards.. damn.. so sucky.. cant even think of an idea.. even if have.. how am i gonna film it?? argH!!

Wednesday, January 05, 2005 . 10:37 PM

today lessons were great! had extremely great fun during CD. I love CD!! haha.. can't believe that our class guys are damn chidlish!! (not referring to jackson that grp.. but instead is CK wormy they all.. ) they are really childish lah.. but nvm, we understand.. guys are just so much immature then gals this age now.. LOLZ! then break time bought the bazaar food and bring go level 3 and eat.. saw leon chua..and asked him for our christmas presents.. haha.. he really bought for us! He gave ferreror rocher.. haha.. each of us(me, KP, jo and WZ) took 4 each.. hehe! good leon chua! no wonder we create a fan club for hiM! wahaha! then java and stsc.. funny sia spicer.. saw the chocolates and used it to teach java. interesting rite? lolx..

went home alone.. cox sher pon cd together with aiwee.. they go town.. and saw david yeo and sky(in double happinessII de).. so stupid lor.. but nvm, i went to meet my mom instead and then haha! got myself a new blouse or shirt? dono also.. haha.. buy for my cousin wedding dinner.. lolz.. and then after that went to make a new spec too.. hahA! so together i spent $170 today.. Lolz! cant believe it.. hehe.. and ya.. my eyesight decrease again! Haha. so surprised sia..

anyway, dono wad to do now.. no one pei me crap.. so sianz.. haiz.. and i think i'm falling sick.. keep coughing non-stop now that the sore throat is gone..and also keep sneezing.. so sickening..

Tuesday, January 04, 2005 . 10:36 PM

today went to school so early.. got stsc tutorial.. sianz..haha.. actually not really lahz..in the train quite sick.. cox keep coughing.. siao liao lah.. sore throat without losing voice.. so funny.. then in stsc did the video thingy.. thought of 2 stories.. anyway, halfway msging 'gwen' haha! say what gonna be late.. haha.. but in the end like reach sch so early lor.. maybe the definition of late is different from mine. lOlz! then got video. so wad lor.. must buy the book.. haiz.. i see like no use lehz.. sicko lAh! then went for break. ate spagehetti. haha.. then have chocolate milk. LOlz! give someone see maybe kana scold? haha.. well, that depends if that someone is so caring lOLZ! den had video lecture and java tutorial.. boring... but watched one video clip in video lesson.. quite funny.. haha..

after school went to bugis watched phantom of the opera with sher. nice movie. den went home.. watched double happiness II.. den now online lor.. annsoon headache now?? haha.. must be not enough sleep.. alwys online so long lahz.. see lah.. haha.. and ya, his blog.. damn funny.. haha.. I got a act cute mummy!! LOLZ!

Monday, January 03, 2005 . 10:43 PM

ytd was not bad. haha. only that everywhere I go also kana suan like hell.. gems kana sher and aiwee suan then in class kana own people suan. Haha. So stupid lahz.. Walked back to FC6 and eat. Then later saw sidik. Had stsc. watched matrix. Haha. so nice.. den he has to stop it. so irritating.. haha.. thought of skipping maths tutorial buthen haiya. in the end never pon. in fact actually quite fun lah. coz very fast do finish le. then after class end went to find sher then met cher and sidik at mlt12 there then went to the bazaar at t19. after that we all went home. did the usual stuffs at home of coz! did my audio too. haiz.. also 4get most of what i did ytd le.. haha..

and yup, having a sore throat now! so sickeninG!

Saturday, January 01, 2005 . 11:48 PM

Happy 2005! Aren't you people glad that it's 2005 already? Although there's still the tsunami incident going on. Let's all hope that this will be a great year ahead. As well as a good start!

Basically did nothing much today except to do my EPI portfolio. Haha! Must finish fast then tml can watch tv and relax. Fell asleep after dinner as I was too tired. Don't even know why also. Then suddenly everyone woke me up to go cousin house as our grand-aunt is going back to HK on wednesday. Go there so many people. Haha. Wonder what's the occasion. Anyway, came back home again and completed my EPI portfolio. Finally. Haha! Haiz, so bored now. Haiz.