Friday, January 27, 2006 . 5:03 PM

i'm bored now. just came back not long ago.. tired. hehe..

was practically sad for the past few days. due to some reason though.
but i guess it's prolly my fault..
keeping problems within oneself aint easy.. especially if one has been hurt in past r/s b4. but i guess i gotta move on..
sorry for the decision that i made that almost hurt both of us..
i had a tough time deciding what and which would be the best solution for us..
but i guess most of the time it's my fault and i didn't want to hurt you in any other way..
especially not in that way..

but nevertheless, i'm glad that we didn't end up hurt.
otherwise, singapore will be flooded. =X

*promise that you will never leave me alrights?*

Sunday, January 22, 2006 . 8:01 PM

time to update. not like sher.. haha.. always taking weeks for her to post. haha..

dono if it's good news or bad.. just that i'm halfway through MMAS cum MMAD prototype. haha.

anyway, skipped gems on wed. couldn't remember the reason why though. haha..
then thurs had ccf.. spent the remaining time in school to ask Elynn chee for better understanding how to do and then we clashed IGRA. omG! that class is boring.. wonder how those IGRA students take it. haha.
ccf is boring. lol.practically did nothing la.. just stand there show past yr students work..

den friday, supposedly go eat seoul garden but ah hao and kp sick so yup.. no more seoul garden. den while waiting for the video lecturers to contact us to exchange laptops, we did MUMI. my gosh! mine are like so simple and plain.. anyway, ate pastamania after that. hehe..
yummy! i want more food! hehe..

next time shall be new york pizza. hehe.. cheap and nice.. haha.. but must travel to harbourfront.. can we go eat one day, dear? hehe..

sat went back sch for ccf again. this time even lesser people. hehe..
and no shuai ge.. haha.. only got tby.. the only shuai ge.. LOlz.. well, in anycase..

tomorrow still got school.. boring... haha..

Tuesday, January 17, 2006 . 10:32 PM

hoorAY!

MMPJ presentation is done! 3 cheers for me and my group..
quite okay lar i should say.. got shoot alot.. all because of the mr Q la.. eeyer..
daryl lim nv shoot so much yet he shoot so much.. sickening..
if georgina phua is there, i doubt she will ask too lor..
but whatever, it's over!
one load off finally..

now..mmad.. man.. sickening..
why must do designing??
i hate to design things out..
i don like designing..
i sux at designing..
and this freaking mmad cause me to throw tantrums at dear. haha..
sorry la.. don angry. hehe..

but anyway, am doing the mmad now..
finally got inspiration liao. haha..
but still can be improved.. only im a lazy girl haha..
well, in any case..
MMPJ is OVER!!!
haha.. and...

friday is....

SEOUL GARDEN!! hehe.. =X

Sunday, January 15, 2006 . 10:03 PM

okays. might have been my last update for this week.
gonna rush for the stupid mmad assignment on friday.. and then mumi assignment too..
oh no!
how how?
but never mind, after handing in mmad on friday, can go eat seoul garden with dear, kp and ah hao le. hehe..

finally, i'm back to myself..
although there are still a little -ve thoughts, i believe i can conquer it all..
coz i never want myself to cry just because of all the -ve thoughts and never want dear to be sad and so stressed too..

what he said makes sense too..
what if he go NS how?
am i going to just live in a world full of -ve thoughts?
no way!
so he has decided to come up with a little exercise..
i may not like it though.. but it's for my own good too..
thanks dear.. what i scared is if the exercise you come up with failed.. but glad you answered the questions..

and yup, have been receiving people's tags..
some are good. some gave me a shocked.. some made me puzzled..
aint gonna say who gave me what.. but no matter what, thanks people..

tml got mmpj presentation. me and dear's grp. different classes of coz..
wish both of us the best of luck..
coz i'm getting nervous.. had been getting butterflies in my stomach now..

[dear] thanks so much for knocking the little bit of sense into me.. though im currently not able to think +vely, i will still try my best..
1 more week before you will implement the little exercise.. im scared.. scared halfway the journey i will think -vely again.. but i will try.. for the sake of both of us.. =)

fri is seoul garden.. hehe.. yay! are you happy?hehe..

Saturday, January 14, 2006 . 1:10 PM

i never ever want you to say "sorry" to me anymore.
do you know how much it will break my heart..

whenever i'm sad, you will just say sorry..
but what's the point of saying sorry when all i wanted was for you to humour me..
and to make me laugh..

even when i'm typing this, the tears are rolling down too..
it always because of the word "sorry" that i will start to cry..
the one who should have apologised is me.. its not you.. you understand?

sorry for treating you so bad..
sorry for breaking the promise we made that i will not hu si luan xiang..
sorry for being so dependent on you..
sorry for falling so deep for you..
sorry for making you spend time with me..
sorry for being so sensitive..
sorry for not being understanding..
sorry for not telling you that at times, i have thought of giving this r/s a second thought..
sorry for letting you worry about me and my temper..
sorry to make you guess what i'm thinking and stuffs..
sorry for a million dozen of things that could never have been listed down..

i'm waiting..
waiting for you to call after all the sms i had sent you..
are you asleep?
i dono.. coz you never tell me you will be sleeping for a while b4 going out to do projects..
i dono everything.. really dono..
what seems strong to others might seems so fragile to me..

in any other case, all i want to do is..
to say sorry to you..

Friday, January 13, 2006 . 7:05 PM

i'm sad now.
seems to have lots of troubles to ponder about.
don't even noe what to do...
coz i seriously dono how to put words across..
we're just hoping to change her before fyp. yea.
but.. oh wells.. really in a dilemma..

dear is at the airport now, sending his NCC fren off.
well, was kinda sad that couldn't spend time with him today.. but..
i'm the one who told him to go ahead since it's not always they go out together..
know i shouldn't be like that.. but oh well, forget it..
i shouldn't have let my thoughts run wild. really shouldn't.
it will just cause alot of unwanted problems...
but i seriously can't help thinking..
what if..
what if one day, dear's dreams came true?
what if my dream came true too?
it's just too much of a coincidence..
though mine was weeks ago..
just too much of a coincidence..

sometimes, i wish i just hadn't fall too deep.
at least i will be able to get out of it.
but now..
it's useless..
nothing or no one can even pull me out.
coz i'm falling in deeper and deeper each time we're close together..
*sighs*
what should i do one day if he's not around me?

Tuesday, January 10, 2006 . 8:40 PM

today is a shopping day! hehe..
for me, dear, kp, wz and wz bf.. hehe..
so shuang..
supposedly to meet at 11am at bugis but being me, i was late. haha..
den went to NLB opposite de This Fashion. haha.. it's two level de. so we stayed there for about 2hr ++
and me, kp and wz bought the same white top for formal wear... will be coOl. hehe.. i spent about $25 in This Fashion.
no money liao.. thurs still going seoul garden.. man.. hope my appetite faster come back. hehe..

after that we went to eat BK. den go seiyu see got any black skirt suitable for wz. oo.. so sad don have. den i suggest OG. and she bought her skirt. but its ex.. and its the same as mine. haha.. wz and i will be twins on monday. yeA! haha..

den went to bras brasah. wanted to go art friend to get mounting board for mmpj. but close! so sickening. so we went to the 5-level popular. but couldnt find the suitable size so we walked around and ta da! found the size for it. and it's only $3.95!! but still gotta confirm with daryl lim on everything.. den went back popular to get an a3 size file for the gantt chart.. after which we went home.. and that is about 5.30pm. shopping for so long. haha.. first time somemore. hehe..

and dear went out with his NCC frenz. to eat steamboat at marina.. bo jio me go. hehe.. and he havent reply any of my msges..dumb pig.. got frenz don want me liao.. =( hehe..

fri gonna be soo lonely.. oh i'm so lonely.. i got nobody.. to call my own...
hahaha..
dear will be going ncc hq this fri with his ncc cadets.. den go changi airport.. dear ah dear.. don alwys go out have wai qing(extra-marital affair) lar. haha... later neglect me ah.. haha.. jk =P

anyway.. i'm so free!! and i love sims2.. hehe.. starting to get addicted to it.. hehe.

Saturday, January 07, 2006 . 1:11 AM

alright. give breif update on tests lar. haha..

tues had mmas. quite ok.. though not sure if i am correct.
but one thing for sure. i could at least get a just pass for the test. haha..

wed had gems, but never go. hehe.. got 8/10 for e-learning assignment. cooL..
went dear hse after going school to teach da ge projects..
dear made me sad too.. hai wo cry till swollen eyes. =(
(sometimes sorry doesn't cure everything. coz i don even want to hear you apologising to me everytime.. )

thurs, vefx. sucky..
dono how to do..
mine seems so different from everybody.. =(
had fyp discussion in the morning too.
was still mad at dear. but anyway, it's over.. till the end of the day, he still made me sad..
but.. glad to know he love me for who i am. =)

fri: mmpj.
omG!
thinking skills questions. i sux at it lar..
end up all anyhow write though i studied for it. wahaha.. life is like a game.
test is just like your life.
without a test, we won't even know where we will be heading to next.
*shrugs*
what's gonna happen to all the term tests i have taken??
will i faiL or will i pass? hahaS..

anyway, waiting for that dumb pig to msg me that he reach home liao.. it's so damn late..but i still wanna wait..

finally all tests are over.
things that need to be handed up have been done so.
gonna chiong now.. left 6 more weeks only..
endure endure endure...
6 weeks of miserable life..
6 weeks of chionging projects..
6 weeks of stressfulness..
man.. when den can relax??