Thursday, December 29, 2005 . 4:56 PM

one great fantastic news for me. hehe..
all assignments are completed.. well except for the gantt chart which we are going to do on the 6th of jan. hehe..
so now can an xin study le. haha.. but first, shall play more than i study haha..
after weeks of slogging out. lolz..

yesterday went to sing kbox with dear, cheryl and ignatius. shuang. hehe... den after that went to walk walk.. so nothing.. argh! but.. hehe.. i bought a skirt at century square when we went home.. nice nice.. finally another set of formal clothes. hehe..
well, can say whatever i'm buying now also equals to my chinese new year clothings. haha..
so.. it's worth it. =)

[dear] just wanna tell you that.. no matter what happens, i know you will be there for me. even though i'm sure that i'm not the best gf u ever had. ok?

Monday, December 26, 2005 . 5:43 PM

i don like this holiday.
it's not even a holiday to me =(
no christmas no nothing.
only assignments assignments and more assignments...
where is my holiday?

been playing neopets almost everyday.
but of course at nite got study.
my brain work best at nite and in the early morning
haha..

dear had been discussing his tbcm and mmpj project lately too..
and i couldn't help missing him..
so badly..
felt as though the distant between us is so far now..
at least after today, i can see him tml and on wed.
hehe..

tml going back school to finish up tbcm and print out..
damn.. still havent figure out how to print in manual form.. argh!
and mmpj, still havent finish our gantt chart.. shall complete it on the 6th jan.
yea.. might felt that projects are completing soon but hell no!

after tests still got more assignments. irritating lar can..
and i soo wanna have a good rest =(

ooo.. and i need money.. money money..
wanna buy lots and lots and lots of food to eat, to buy more clothings..
but i cant work.. coz no job now..
and if i work i will be stressed up balancing work and studies..
damn..

but im glad that wed im gonna go out with dear, cheryl and her dearie and another of her fren also my junior.. gonna go kbox and sing sing sing..
sing till i shuang...
hehe..

**looking forward to wed**=)

Wednesday, December 21, 2005 . 11:47 PM

i'm sad..
for valid reasons..

had 2 bad dreams last nite and just this morning..( was woken up by my dream)
it was real bad.. could still remember the details though. but what exactly happened.. well.. i couldn't really remember.. so scary lar.. even till now i'm still quite scared.. yea, scared that the dreams would come true.. bad dreams usually come true don't they?
*sighs*
if only i could tell dear everything... but again, sometimes, i rather keep it to myself.. (even while typing this, everything that i had wanted to say are filling up my mind, but i still want to remain silent)
i really dono what to do with myself..

people's point of view of me now.. has it changed?
was it because after being a class rep that i've non-stop stressing on myself?
or was it because it's the last semester before fyp and itp and i badly want to graduate faster that cause me to suddenly become so serious in things?
i really dono..
i'm getting freaked out by myself too.. this is just not me..
i don't rush for assignments.. i don't study everyday.. why are all these happening now?
*sighs*
tell me that all these ain't happening at all..
i'm freaking out..

these 2 weeks of holidays.. it's just so bad lar can.. rushing all the damn assignments and all.. it's tiring.. really tiring.. sometimes, i just wish everything would disappear.. but they just don't..
there will still be tests after tests.. assignments after assignments.. they don't stop coming at all.. well unless we died huh?

i really got lots of things to say.. but i really dono how to express everything.. i rather bottle everything up myself.. i just feel so tired.. really tired.. somebody save me please..

Monday, December 19, 2005 . 2:11 PM

i just wanna vent my frustrations..

wad are frenz for lor..
help halfway den went off.. knS!
also not we want to be pissed off okay?
what would you do if you were in our shoes?
you cant even access blackboard, cant even log in to centra.

so what if you are able to get in? big deal lar?
kaoz eh...

anyway, i just don't like the way some people do things.
period.

went wild wild wet yesterday..
with sq and my dad.. quite fun. haha. though the sun wasn't strong..
yea, and i've been getting chided for nothing lately..
what's wrong with getting up late and sleeping so many hours a day?
tired so sleep lor.. got wrong meh?
tired so sleep to get more energy to study mar.. wrong arH?
kaoz eh.. never understand people's situation one lor..

Wednesday, December 14, 2005 . 11:23 PM

yippee.. holidays are here.. e-learning week and term break..

but to me, holidays = no holidays. why?
coz need to discuss projects, do projects, study for term test.. so many things on my hand even though i've tried completing them as soon as possible. one eg: quizzes, mmad tasks..

i need a breathing space man.. everything is so tight around me now..
felt as though i'm struggling for help in the water..
damn.. are these signs of stress once again?

**i may laugh and smile and be cheery, but what lies beneath is a heavy weight.

Friday, December 09, 2005 . 8:48 PM

dear's at NCC HQ now.. oh, on the way home now so i shall blog.. hehe

these few days, dono why like so busy.. again.. haiz.. this sem really fated to be damn busy.. =(
or is it because school ended latE? well, only for mon and tues. haha..

wed got student dialogue. shuang.. shoot alot of things.. especially the DMAT students.. but their director or is it deputy director kept speaking up for them.. like so the.... well, you'll get what i mean.. den people talked about the elective clusters.. den session end liaoz.. so left dear, me, georgina phua (DMMT deputy director), tby and elynn chee. dear talking with georgina phua. so i chat with elynn chee and tby lor. haha.. dear very pei fu georgina phua. haha.. but of course, she is my mmpj lecturer wad.. haha.. of coz must pei fu lar. haha.. =P anyway, hope our feedback at the dialogue session helps..

yesterday.. hmn.. had mmad lecture.. wah, whole class maciam not listening lar. only me, jo, wz and kp and also ck that grp of people.. poor janny chan. haha.. then after that dear smsed me say no mmpj lecture. coz daryl lim still sick. shuang! can go eat seoul garden earlier. but.. dear still have mmad lecture with janny chan so i clash class lor. janny chan also don mind. haha.. den actually b4 a grp of people came in, the class actually very quiet one.. until this certain group of people come in.. wah, very noisy sia.. now i can actually make full use of ms sakinah favorite phrase: FOS (ask me for meaning haha..) den after a while, dear class became silent.. y? haha.. ask me lar. hehe.. den i tell the reason why lolz..
sometimes, really don't understand why people are like that.. does it make their life betteR? well, rather i feel it will make them lose everything around them one day can.. and also another person.. don't feel like saying de.. but bcoz i think that person change alot too.. think dear will noe who.. life is so unpredicatable lar..

anyway, after dear class, went bugis eat seoul garden.. yummy yummy. haha.. dear treat de. hehe.. den go shopping for white skirt.(formal wear) found one but dono if my mom like it not.. *sighs*

today.. felt like sleeping man.. don't have the mood to listen to tbcm at all.. then after that had mmpj discussion with jo, wz, kp and da ge.. den stayed till 5.10pm in school haha.. fun fun!

Sunday, December 04, 2005 . 2:51 PM

someone please kill me!! I'm dying of boredom at home.. argH!

anyway, short recap of these 3 days..

fri:
went dear hse in the morning to help him carry the equipment.. actually nv really carry..haha.. only take his pouch and all etc. lolz.
den tbcm.. sian..need to separate into different grps.. a mixture of boys and gals.. how sickening lor..so ma fan one..
anyway, our filming finished liao..hopefully it won't be too short..else we gotta think of new ideas again.. oh ya, and we took about 45min to wrap up our filming. haha..
anyway, after that head back to dear hse again to put equipments coz we cannot return on fri..=(
den after that, we go down causeway point.. dear mummy ask him go buy formal wear since he got the $20 voucher for all the shopping centre that end with a point at the back.. (except for jurong point and south point)
shop hao le den head back home.. i still need a skirt for formal wear..argH!!!!!

sat:
did nothing much.. tot of formating my room computer (still got so many problems) but end up never.. den slacked and watched tv.. till 3pm..haha.. then go bathe and off we go to my cousin hse.. hehe.. they took 300+ photos when they go to perth lar.. haha. so many can.. after that came home den online.. till i headache..
slept early too. hehe..

today:
woke up damn late. dono why.. think i'm too tired i guess..
den read newspaper hao le den i finally formatted my com..sian.. took me freaking long time to do.. but do till the same also.. weird man..
think need to send for repair le.. it's beyond hope..haha..

sianz.. tml still got class.. don feel like going man.. i'm getting tired of school now.. and the food at fc6? haha..
i'm always thinking of eating food that are more yummy but none of it can be found in school.. hahaa...

Thursday, December 01, 2005 . 11:42 PM

still sick man.. =(
my voice has totally been gone..
so sad.. cant sing any song at all..

today me and dear 10th months.. hehe..
thought he forgot about it coz ytd he say he going his fren bday celebration..
but he didn't.. hehe..
after school went to eat mac at raffles place..coz near ACM.. haha.
den after head to ACM.. to collect info for mmad..
coz dono what to write for concept paper..
and i'm finally done with it..

another thing.. everyday for this whole week, been fixing my house comp.. wireless connection siao liao.. *Sighs* see le also sianz..

anyway.. still back to square one.. i'm still sick.. =(
still coughing everyday.. i'm so sad...

//happy 10mth dear//