Tuesday, November 30, 2004 . 3:46 PM

woke up at 9.55am.. after my sis came barging into my room to tell me it's 10am and den 11am got my My MVP Valentine.. so i woke up and then found my dad not working.. haha.. and the comp is on.. so see who online lor.. no one.. bored.. den after that go watch my tv shows.. all the way to 12pm.. and now i am online.. waiting to register for my GEMs.. i dono which to reg at all.. coz heard they say only register one GEM only.. so how? i dono also.. sher not here cant discuss.. aiwee not online yet.. mummy online but he nv reply.. haiz.. think gotta tell jiang about it too.. checked the time table for next semester.. damn it lah can.. out of 5 days school.. 3 days class start at 8.30am.. sickening lor.. den cannot go sch with sher le.. must go sch alone.. how stupid can this be la? worse is java lecturers are spicer and hubert.. manz! so terrible.. i dread going to school next sem.. spoil my mood to looking forward to sch.. haiz.. this time go sch.. dono will have wad changes also..me and sher no more shuai ge to see.. all go ITP le.. haiz.. can someone help?

this is the timings i start and end sch(after GEMs selection):
mon: 8am-4.30pm
tues: 8.30am-2.30pm
wed: 8.30am-3pm
thurs: 10am-5pm
fri: 8.30am-12pm
how sickening can this be? having to wake up so early isn't my style.. haiz.. but maybe can get a lift from my dad.. haha..

i'm so sad now. not becoz of the time-table or wadever thingy.. but i just find that there are too many things that i can't put down at all.. so much memories are left behind. i dont wanna be sad.. the times when i am sad will be over.. but why now? haiz.. damn! everyday gonna go sch so early.. i hate this!!haiz..

okay, think i have grumbled enough.. no more late nights i guessed.. haha.. i got into etiquette and professional image.. same as aiwee and hopefully sher's aunt click the same one too.. think gonna call jiang tml.. haiz.. everyone's gone now.. i feel so restless so suddenly.. i wanna cry now.. you might think i must be crazy to cry for nothing.. but seriously, i dono why too.. i wish someone would really comfort me.. lend me a shoulder and cry.. but all these will never come true.. i'm sick and tired of wishing this and that.. very sick and tired of that.. can someone really help me?? to be there for me??

Monday, November 29, 2004 . 11:11 PM

so bored. haha.. woke up at 10am watch my tv den at 11am go back slp till 12.30pm again.. haha.. pig la me! lolx.. well, there's really nothing for me to do at home now. haha. so bored at home.. so after having my lunch, i online till about 3 or 4+ haha.. den mummy at wormy hse.. so chat with me.. at first i tot is wormy one.. haha.. then in the end is mummy.. lolx.. anyway, mummy getting a new comp..haha.. and poor wormy is the computer man.. going with him to buy comp and then go and fix.. and i think the poor computer man is gonna stay overnight at mummy hse.. haha.. well, let's just hope that in future, this computer they fixed wont give mummy any more problems in the future.. haha.. and it better be working to be in time for tomorrow's GEMs registration.. haha..

haiz.. 8 more days, and sher will be back.. what fun is she gonna get in switzerland and in italy.. haha.. wanna sms her but scared too ex then kana scolding.. haiz.. anyway, these 2 days cannot go out at all.. gotta register for me and jiang's GEMs.. jiang is on 1 dec.. and she will only be back on 3dec.. manz.. why everyone go holiday except for me? haiz.. actually i also can go holiday to genting one.. buthen bcox it is on dec 11,12 and 13 and 13 sch reopens so cannot go.. who noes maybe on the 13 early in the morning they come back.. haha.. but well, don go also good lahz.. go cousin hse there.. and play.. haha.. follow mummy's footsteps.. lolx.. go cousin hse play.. but of cox not like him so good life lahz.. play PS2? watch vcd/dvd and etc.. me go there play xbox, watch tv and online only.. haha.. but maybe they have activities so just tag along lor.. haha.. haiz..

Sunday, November 28, 2004 . 10:54 PM

ytd didn't blog cox well, was too lazy.. and anyway, did nothing much too.. except that woke up and watched tv.. and den halfway eat lunch, halfeway watch meteor garden.. haha.. den later my sisters told me we are going jurong east for swimming.. manz! i wanted to go too.. but meteor garden hasn't end.. so well, in the end, i went for swimming too.. haha.. swim till abt 3+ den go find my maid who is looking after the belongings.. and den go buy thing eat.. haha.. ate potato chips, ice cream and then mee siam.. lolx.. so hungry.. haha.. den went home lor.. fetched my mom first den go and eat dinner.. haha.. yummy deliciouS! haha.. thats my day.. den at nite, watched tv as usual and den online.. nobody to talk to.. mummy dono do wad.. but got talk a while also lahz.. den jiang came online den suddenly chat halfway, her internet connection got prob.. so in the end, we chat on the phone.. haha.. talked about gems.. cox she going KL today(sunday) den ask me register her gems for her.. so ok lor.. den chat till 1+ haha.. manz, mummy comp go crazy again.. haha.. make him so maddening at the comp.. poor thing.

today..what did i do? hmn.. woke up exceptionally early today, without knowing the reason why.. den watched tv.. played comp.. and my 2nd sister fren came today.. wah.. her frenz lately keep coming.. she call one lah.. haha.. yup.. until now, watch my tv finish le.. so online lor.. only to find my mummy not online.. so read his blog.. haha.. his comp really down again.. dono why mummy blog like so sad leh.. haha.. suddenly read his today entry.. it makes me sad.. with the song that is playing.. haiz.. is it really true like mummy say that the more you try to forget that special memory, the harder it is to forget? i always have problems wanting to forget certain memories. well, i really dono.. but what he post, really let me think about everything again. from day 1 to now.. what can i say except that i know it's impossible.. so what if i like him? he likes her.. well. so confusing huh? i just don wanna write the names. . those who noe me well enough will noe who i referring to.. it's all fated that me and him are good frenz.. until now, nobody really does noe that does time really heals everything? even if it could, how long will it take? 1 day? 1 week? 1 mth? or 1yr? or even more than 1yr? been really pondering this question for so long.. i do want to noe the answer..

dear me.. i'm getting emotional once again.. haiz.. what should i do? i'm now left alone to think through everything. it may be a good thing. but somehow or other, it may be bad too.. well, i've grown up after everything. i wont be so foolish as to have those sec 1 thoughts.. haha.. well, mummy say he getting a new comp tml.. hopefully after changing, his comp will be better... hehe..

**missing the special someone..**

Friday, November 26, 2004 . 11:29 PM

haha, so happy today... went out to town at nite to meet jiang, eling aka lalang, xinyan, yuwen and unexpected guest: kelvin chuA!! haha.. the 5 belles of YPS and the beau of YPS? haha.. lolx.. everyone are late except for mE!! haha, see! go out with sher they all, normally i late, but with my sec sch frenz, dUH, always i early.. haha.. inherited from weisiang aka siang ge ge.. haha.. that i have to wait for them.. lolx.. anyway, went to scotts road there and ate pasta with jiang.. then lalang buy yong tau foo and xinyan and yuwen bought 'ban mian'.. haha.. chua and his frenz den came to find us and they ate halal foods.. yup.. was chatting about the days in pri sch and the sch life we are leading now.. after that went to ck tangs.. jiang bought a levis t-shirt for her *eHem* haha.. and the model is.. tadada: chuA!! haha.. same built about the same height.. haha.. well after that went to far east to take neoprints.. haha.. though the pics are like a little small, who cares? den off i go home.. haha..

well, we really chat alot.. about those times in pri sch and how the lives we are leadin in poly.. and as xinyan and yuwen has just completed their 'O's, asked how they did and so on.. den later we talk and talk.. it just seems like those times in pri sch.. oh manz! i really miss those times.. how we used to go stay back after school to play, how we go to each other house to play and talk.. how we alwys copy homeworks.. haha.. how much fun we have during pri sch.. still remember those times when we were quarelling and then sae: "i dont friend you anymore!" and a few days later, we will be frenz again.. haha. come to think of it, it's a little childish then.. lolx.. also the times when we were not on good terms with our neighbour class: 6B den in the end we found that actually they are not that bad afterall.. haha.. and anyway, after not seeing yuwen for like 5 yrs, and although xinyan is in the same sec sch as me, lalang and jiang.. we seldom see each other.. and now during poly life and so on.. conclusion came: everyone changed.. yup.. even when we talked about old frenz in pri sch.. everyone changed alot.. lalang for once became so smart! haha.. PSLE scored higher than us, 'O' levels top scorer in ESSS, and now heard that she even top her poly class.. as in the whole ppl studyin that course: biomedical i think.. haha, i began to reminisce the old times.. in pri sch and in sec sch.. i miss 5A and 6A, as well as 3E5 and 4E5.. haiz.. those were the times that were so fun.. come to think of it, we have all grown up. to be young adults.. and those memories can only be played like a movie without sound. it's all memories..

anyway, glad to say something: my mummy is back! haha.. dono why his comp suddenly can on le.. lolx.. but online still nv talk.. haha.. dono why also.. well, it's been one day already.. sher's been gone for one day.. and me and aiwee are like missing her so much.. haha, hope she will have fun there.. remember to take lotsa pics too. haha.. guess, i cant tell her that.. sms to her will be too ex.. my mom and dad gonna kill me if they noe i sms overseas manz.. haha.. well, guess that's all for today.. yup? haha..

**PS: the song playing now is: graduation by vitamin C(friends forever).. though we all have graduated, the memories still lives on.. no matter how our lives has changed, we will still be the best of the best frenz.. nothing more can break this chain of friendship that's been for so more than 10yrs.. argh! think i better drop everything.. any ideas of getting together with him. yes, him. haiz.. suddenly missing everything now.. what should i do?? =(

Thursday, November 25, 2004 . 11:22 PM

argh! having a terrible headache now.. but don feel like sleeping.. must be i too tired le.. but couldn't be rite? after waking up at 12.30pm today.. and i am still tired? that must be so crazy.. anyway, sher msged me say that she board the aeroplane le.. manz! she will be like away for how long lah can? 12 days like that lor.. hopefully, she can go to CBC camp too.. haha.. den can share wadever fun she has during the camp.. lolx.. gonna miss her lots!! no one to talk to online le.. haha.. here i am so bored and she can enjoy her holidays in switzerland.. so envious haha.. and my that mummy haiz.. no comments manz! think he better stay at cousin house till sch reopens la.. haha.. haiz.. his comp also spoil.. lolx.. don feel like flooding his tagboard le.. no mood at all.. =)
-gone-
felt my world falling apart slowly.
it's starting once again..
breaking me apart, one by one, piece by piece.
i can't help but to look back,
only to find no one.

you. will you be able to cover up everything that's been left in me? i seriously don't even know the answers. life's been so bored ever since the holidays. and i'm like left with about 2 more weeks before school finally reopens. how glad can i be?

everything that is left in me now is practically nothing. feel so empty in my own world. my own heart. the loneliness is coming back. the sadness. the temper. the laziness. everything is coming back slowly. i don't want to feel this way.
i feel like crying. crying out loud. not in silence. i tell myself umpteen times not to cry in silence. but i can't do it.
i can't control my tears at all anymore. it's falling. every drop of a tear represents every single bit of my unhappiness. one sentence: I'm not happy now.

Wednesday, November 24, 2004 . 11:28 PM

couldn't slp at all last nite. dono why too. must be because i was too scared what kind of results i will get bahz.. haha.. so i kept waking up in the middle of the night, wishing that it was already 8 or 9+ in the morning.. haha.. finally, i woke up at 9am.. slacked in my room for30mins before going out of my room to check the results.. yoohoo! i passed all.. haha.. so happy. though pass till not very nice, but at least i still pass.. haha.. nv expect my morg to pass too.. haha..

anyway, went out at abt 11 to go meet mummy at amk station. after that, went to watch the incredibles.. haha.. it's a nice movie. so cute too.. haha.. yup, anyway, after that met up with wormy and his ex, and 2 other of wormy and mummy's fren--part of s5 too(gary and keewei, if i not wrong)..met up and played pool..wah, they take the 8ft table lor.. cox there no 7ft.. haha, at first heard they say 9ft then dono why become 8ft.. lolx.. haha.. fun game.. haha.. play with them no stress de haha, not like when u play with shifu ah pat they all.. haha.. cox shifu pat they are all experts.. lolx.. den when my turn, my white ball fly dono how many times.. haha.. but not like gerald last time fly till hit sher la but anyway, today enjoyed myself.. after pool, go play arcade den walk walk a while.. den go home.. on the way home, mummy msged me ask me whether i enjoy anot.. haha. wad can i say so i tell the truth lor.. i said yes, but he don really belief cox i looked abit bored, den ask me play game i sae don want...haha.. well, wad can i sae too? cox i don play violent games.. haha.. lolx.. so end up in arcade, we played 2 rounds of daytona.. wah seh.. nv get to win.. =( it was an exciting one though, cars overturned, cars kana banged onto walls.. haha.. well, anyway, reached home in time to watch double happiness II. haha

my day is quite alright until my blabbermouth 2nd sister went to annouce my results to my mom and it is like in the morning tell le lor.. den still have to announce other things too.. wth lor.. so busybody. cant she just mind her own business? kaypO manz! don even noe wad's good and bad for her.. and plus, i came back home, my mom brought back the sims 2..cox she promised my sis that if she get good results, she will buy what she wants.. pls la can.. never even see her treat me that way before. though i'm not as smart as my 2nd sis, but i have my own achievements too. what did i get after passing my 'O' levels? nothing. but just becoz my 2nd sis achieved good grades, she has the sims 2.. wth lor.. and now when i passed all my modules, did i have anything? nahz! why is it that they can encourage my sisters and all with things but not me? just becoz i'm 17 this yr? is it cox i'm too grown up for those kinds of encouragement thingys? oh manz! for gracious sake! give me a break manz! i need words of encouragement too lor can? though i'm 17 ya so what? arGH! totally spoil my day after going out.. sickO!

Tuesday, November 23, 2004 . 11:12 PM

well, today got woken up by my sis.. haha.. told her to wake me up at 10am and she woke me up at 9.30am.. wad the hell.. haha.. but nvm, cox i woke up at 9.55am.. in time to watch my tv.. haha.. yup, my dad's back.. wonder what goodies he brought back haha.. greedy huh? haha.. that's me! search the whole cupboard and all, found the nougats.. yum yum, it's nice.. haha.. then got lollipops too! hehe.. still a kid la.. den at 12pm, my 2nd sis fren came over and play.. has lotsa fun.. haha.. played monopoly with them.. and i got bankrupt manz.. owe lots of debts.. haha.. well cox i took over my 3rd sis and she bought all the lousy properties.. haha.. but anyway, i gave up the game and the game ends then.. lolx.. went my room and played the sims.. haha.. so long nv touch that game le.. lolx.. den after that 5+ le.. watched tv again.. till 10pm of cox.. haha.. well, so bored now.. sher's not online and she's like leaving in how many hours time.. and she'll be back on the 6th.. also dono wad time.. haiz.. hey sher: remember to go for the camp.. must go lehx.. haha..

good news! i'm able to go out this fri with lalang, jiang, yuwen and xinyan to town.. yay!! so happy.. meet up with pri sch frenz.. hehe.. and then fri going to pulau ubin and cycle.. with my dad and dono who also.. haha.. my days have been filled up again!! so happy.. haha.. anyway, cheryl asked a question: how to forget someone? seriously i dono, so i just replied time will help to forget someone.. she then said that no matter where she go she will bump into him one.. it all seems fated in this case.. but well, affairs of the heart i daren't say much. what can i say when i cant even handle mine? argh! -gone-

Monday, November 22, 2004 . 10:50 PM

well, wad can i say about today? practically nothing. why? because i slept at 2.30am this morning den woke up this afernoon at 3+pm.. haha.. aint i super? lolx. just wondering how i did that? haha.. if sher hadn't called me, maybe i can slp till 4+ haha.. well, guess i'm not fated to slp for so long huh? haha.. woke up and played games.. lolx.. as usual lar.. lolx.. argh! so bored lor.. my mummy comp spoil, den he go his cousin house again.. hmn.. wondering he this time stay gonna stay how long? another week? haha.. well, nobody noes i guess.. haha.. shan't care this mummy also.. haha.. cox he forever MIA one.. guess he also dont care this nu er also.. haha..

yea, lalang msged me and tell me that she and jiang shu are plannin an outing.. this fri with yuwen and xinyan.. all 5 of us are pri sch good frenz.. yea.. but i dono if i can go.. cox lalang knock off work at 5.30pm, and we are meetin sae after her work den go to orchard eat walk walk and see the lighting.. well, guess it's gonna be real fun rite? hope that i can go.. maybe shall ask my parents tml.. haha.. and yup, my dad's gonna be back sae in 4 hours time.. which is 3am+ haha.. and by then i'm already in my sweet dreamz.. haha..

Sunday, November 21, 2004 . 10:48 PM

ytd was as usual. alwys doing the same thing for saturdays.. lolx.. wake up watch tv.. den play game.. den go went to central.. my mom tot lydia sum will be at tampines interchange there for the dono wadever event.. den when we got there no lydia sum.. and i knew why.. haha.. the ones appearing are the cast of living with lydia.. lolx.. after that went to tampines mall and century square walk walk den times up! 5.45pm. went back to the same place and catch sylvester and taufik.. haha! so maddening lor.. so many ppl..den all block my view. haha! too short lah i noe.. den just when got a nice view ppl come stand in front of me.. sickening rite? anyway, after that went to pavilion BK there and eat..den when eat come out, saw sylvester and taufik appear on stage again.. haha! good good.. this time as the ppl has lessen, can catch a even better view.. so see them until they left lor.. but the worst thing is this: when they(syl and taufik) board the bus that were transporting them from place to place, syl and taufik's fans were screaming and shouting.. haha.. even when the bus almost left.. and i sae almost.. they were blocking the way too and screamed and shouted.. haha.. thus dono when the bus left anyway.. lolx.. manz! sylvester damn shuai! haha.. oh ya, when reached tampines interchange, saw jian bin.. haha.. kept bumping into he and his frenz.. dUHz.. wondering why jie si bo nv go out with them also.. haha.. anyway, reached home watched tv again.. until 8pm den play games.. haha.. den sudddenly mummy sae he going home now.. alone somemore.. lolx.. so late den go home.. lolx.. den he reached home le, cannot online coz his comp spoil.. haiz.. poor thing.. the comp must be miss him too much le.. den got rusty.. haha.. k thats lame lahz..

today.. wad did i do? my mom woke me up so many times at 10+. . but i nv did.. so eventually i woke up at 11.30am.. haha! den wake up hmn.. watch tv den eat lunch lor. den play game again.. haha! usual activities.. nv go out today.. haha.. so good huh? anyway, next wk going out.. yipee!! and my dad's coming back tml.. yay! can have nougats le!! haha.. den next wk go out ask my dad for money go out liaoz.. haha.. finally.. =P

Friday, November 19, 2004 . 10:51 PM

slacked the whole day.. haha.. did the usual stuffs and den yup.. came online after watchin liu mang tai yi.. hehe.. felt so bored, so i decided to read back my entries.. right from the start again.. as i read, memories came back again.. although i noe and i think i promised mummy i wont read back again.. (did i promise, haha? forget le), i dono why got the sudden urge to read it.. but seriously, this time i read, no doubt memories came flashing back, i did laughed at myself too.. haha.. seriously i laughed.. hehe.. den after reading mine finished, i read wormy's one.. haha.. reading his really gave me the joy.. hehe.. i practically laughed while reading some of his entries... haha.. and when some of his entries are really sad.. i will get sad too.. that's me i suppose.. alwys getting emotional.. yup, and then read mummy's one too.. wah.. mummy one.. very very long at certain days.. like he writing composition.. haha.. guessed sometimes i do that too.. until sher also at times do grumble that i write so long.. haha..

well, got a happy thing to announce.. sylvester sim is in for the finals of Singapore Idol!! yay!! but olinda was out.. she's a great singer.. with a powerful voice.. i just love her manz.. darn! i'm getting bored as days goes by.. what should i do?? arGH!!! i want my mummy to faster come home!!! i miss talking with my mummY!!!!! say today maybe going home.. go home till where? haha.. this point gotta agreed with what wormy used to sae him in his(wormy) blog.. my mummy is so wishy-washy.. haha..

Thursday, November 18, 2004 . 10:56 PM

woke up so early today. think 7+ am bahz.. dono why also.. just cant slp at nite.. even in the middle of the nite woke up so many times too.. argh! just dont get it.. but anyway, even though i woke up at 7+am, i managed to slp again till 10am.. haha.. to watch tv of course.. lolx.. den after that wait for my sistaz to come home.. today they prize giving ceremony, so of course my mom went haha.. den while waiting, sher called and asked wanna play pool at parkway with cass.. haha. of course lahz.. i sae yes.. else i'm gonna be so bored.. hehe.. met them at 1.30pm but they late.. lolx.. first time i'm early.. hehe..

cass came next den we go mac and eat a little.. shun bian wait for sher.. haha.. den later we go play pool! yay! oh manz. my skills are still so lousy.. haha.. dono how also.. but at least got improve abit i think.. and ya, sher and cass fren, alison came to join us too.. hehe.. so fun.. lolx.. played till about 4pm den cox alison need go back TP so we all went TP lor. . den cass showed me and sher around TP..haha.. think if i go there find people alone, sure get lost de..haha.. we walked till so tired lor.. den me and sher concluded that TP is bigger than SP and is more tiring to walk.. haha.. anyway, that's lame lahz.. went to business school there den saw huiyi.. so shocked to see her too.. oh manz! i sorta like TP.. as in the facilities bahz.. the swimming pool is bigger than SP and then got fountain also.. somemore can link to bedok reservoir too.. den cass say sometimes can see the sunset too.. i want to see sunset!! hehe.. hmn.. but anyway, SP is my dream poly.. haha.. well.. gonna psycho my grandsons to join SP.. lolx.. or maybe when we sch reopens den ask them come find their this ah ma.. haha..

haiz.. singapore idol is so disappointing.. hope sylvester wont out.. he out i boycott le lahz.. haha.. anyway, my mummy today afternn asked me when want watch the incredibles.. haha.. yay.. can go watch le.. and is with my mummy.. haha.. haiya, asked mummy when he going home so got people chat with me, he sae maybe tml.. his tml seems to take forever manz.. haiz..

Wednesday, November 17, 2004 . 10:56 PM

woke up at 10am.. in time to watch tv again.. haha.. i'm getting the habit of watching tv at 10am and den slacking now.. haha, wad else can i do manz? getting bored as days go by now.. no one to talk with me le.. haiz.. suddenly miss my mummy so much.. don get the wrong idea wor.. *winkz* miss my mummy as in chatting with him online.. haiz...

went swimming after my sister came back from school.. haha.. nothing to do so just thought of swimming mahz.. lolx.. went to tampines there buthen close for dono wad upgrading.. sickening.. so went to bedok one.. haha.. my sis complained that it was not fun.. lolx.. but who cares.. anyway, swam till so tired den after that went to bedok central to but thing eat.. haha.. den took bus 28 home.. the journey is so long.. since after it changed routes and started turning in to ESSS there.. haha.. last time it was so convenient for me.. cox can take direct bus to sch.. but now.. abit ma fan. haha... came back home and slept. felt tired after swimming.. slept for 1hr thus waking up at 6pm.. haha.. den see see my youngest sis report book.. haha.. terrible manz! lolx.. though it is all 70+ but for a P2 student., goSh! no waY laRhz.. haha.

anyway, watched tv again.. all the way to 10pm.. the 9pm show not that nice.. haiz.. and ya, for the champions, they showed who kaiwei will choose between yixuan and jingwen.. hehe..he chose jingwen.. cox his feelings for yixuan has died. yup. once the feelings are gone, you cant find it back anymore no matter how hard you try. guessed that happened to me once.. haiz. well shan't talked about it.. it's in the past.. i'm so tired of talking about the past now. haiz.. even the present now.. i just dont wanna think of the present too.. it's just so tiring.. well, gonna watch my tv again.. blog tml or when..

Tuesday, November 16, 2004 . 11:31 PM

woaH! woke up just in time to watch liu mang tai yi.. haha.. skipped lunch today.. no appetite to eat.. so i played games on my computer.. yea.. played the whole day.. den august msged me abt 3+ sae he meet me at bus stop there pass me vcds.. yay! finally.. hehe.. den after that eat biscuits.. and slacked a while before playing games again.. haiyo.. slacked till like that.. oh dear.. think my mummy not going home le.. dono how long he gonna stay at cousin hse too.. ytd told me today.. today tell me mayb tml.. den later sae nt sure also.. dot.. haha.. but he stay there like alot of things to do.. watch vcds..play game.. den dono wad else also.. haiz.. so bored..

watched tv again from 5.30pm all the way to 10pm.. haha.. yay! the champions so nice. hehe.. nice show.. but sad.. cannot see toro again.. *sob sob* but anyway, the show is fantastic.. hehe.. haiz.. so bored now.. can someone pls talk with me.. lolx.. i'm so freaking b.o.r.e.d.

Monday, November 15, 2004 . 11:05 PM

haiya, woke up super early today.. kana woke up one lahz. needless to say.. the vacuuming and all.. so actually tot can wake up at 10+ or 11+ become i woke up at 8+.. but nvm, cox that time i see my hp, got msg from mummy.. haha.. he at cousin hse.. den hp no batt. no wonder lahz.. haiya.. qi ji wor.. mummy wake up so early.. lolx.. haiz.. kinda feel bad.. alwys anything find this mummy 'su ku'(complain). den alwys need mummy talk to me den he nt there pei me talk.. den he feel guilty.. hehe.. don need feel guilty lahz mummy.. ur nu er is like that de.. quite used to it.. haiz..

bake cookies in the morning.. haha.. cox nth to eat at hme le.. see la aiwee, ur influence so big sia.. lolx.. spread to me le.. hehe.. yum yum.. the cookies so nice.. hehe.. after that, ate lunch and den went to john little expo sales.. actually dont wanna go de.. but aiyah, anything lor. so bored at home.. haha.. finally, got a new swimsuit.. yay!! so happy.. hehe..

came back home and then watched tv and played board games with my sistaz.. dUH! i loST!! haha.. who cares anyway.. lolx.. haiz.. feel that i'm back to the old state.. living in a life of soliditary.. haiz.. alwys alone.. cant stand it.. den it's like when i need a chat or so, no matter i turn where i find no one... such a sad case rite? and plus starting to think on the very negative side le.. haiz..

dUh! when my mummy going home.. i'm too bored le lahz.. luckily wormy pei wo chat.. lolx.. chat about some things lahz.. of cox.. lolx.. haiz.. too bored le.. dono wad to do.. finally tml meeting august to take vcds.. all korean one(alot somemore).. yay! just love it manz! haha.. korean shows are nice.. hehe.. and there goes my days.. watchin vcds.. lolx..

Events coming up: Dad's coming back from Australia(nov 22)
4E5 chalet(nov 30, dec 1 and 2)
CBC camp(dec 6, 7 and 8)
my grandson's chalet(dec 6,7,8 and 9)
should i go or should i not? haiz.. 4e5 chalet i'm definitely want to go.. can see my lalang and siang-gege.. hehe.. CBC camp i nt sure.. cant find anyone to accompany me.. grandson's chalet not too sure yet.. maybe if going for CBC camp den straight after the camp den go bahz.. yup, thats about it..

Sunday, November 14, 2004 . 11:15 PM

well, now the time is 11.15pm.. haiz.. wad did i do today? practically nth.. woke up at 11am ate my lunch which equivalents to my breakfast too.. and den watched the 11am show.. huang gong bao bei.. didn't realise it's a nice show.. hehe.. after watching, went to bath and then played games for a while before sleeping after watching super sunday halfway.. haha.. slept all the way till dinner time.. and den watched tv again.. haiz.. really been watching tv, sleeping and online everyday.. so bored..

arGH! my flu ain't any better.. what should i do? no more medicine to eat le.. cox all my medicine are gastric pain one.. haiz.. gonna be 1wk le.. and it's still the same.. haiz.. anyway, I'M SO BORED!! what should i do?? haha.. so weird, my mummy today nv online.. later ppl offline le he online.. as usual.. dono also lahz.. just feel that my mummy and I like now so far apart.. seldom talk le.. dono the reason why too.. also feel that this time holiday is like too long. getting further apart from everything now.. so far apart.. it's not like last time anymore.. not the same any longer.. haiz.. I HATE THIS HOLIDAY!! SO LONG!! SO BORED!!

Saturday, November 13, 2004 . 10:51 PM

haha.. finally i'm home.. lolx.. woke up at 10.30am.. after preparing everything, had my breakfast, watched tv.. channel u korean show.. nice manz! haha.. den after watching.. my sister told me that we are going to our cousin house at 12pm.. den it's like.. wah so fast.. haha.. so rush and bath lor.. den who noes bath come out eat my lunch.. 12pm le.. so i watch liu xing hua yuan lor.. while my sistaz kana chased to slp for a while before going out.. wah seh.. bluff me ar.. 12pm go out.. haha..

den went my cousin hse.. wah, my cousin same age as me de not in.. only her parents.. and another or our cousin whom they are lookin after.. so go there do nth lor.. played xbox a while den after that take things and eat.. haha.. there alot of things to eat de.. so i cant imagine if i stay there what will happen to me.. lolx.. ate so much lor.. den after that sit down and listen to my mom and cousin's mom conversation.. haha.. though they speaking in dialect, i knew some lahz.. den join in lor.. haha.. nth to do wad.. yup, then went online a while.. so bored. mummy and sher online.. so chat a while den my sister bugging me to let her use le.. haha.. she use the comp so long one lor.. idoitic pig! cant stand her.. so anyway.. after loggin off, went to eat things again.. den coz my aunt changed hp.. so haha, took pics using her hp.. lolx.. so nice.. hehe.. ooPZ! zi lian again.. haha.. and ya had dinner there.. hehe.. den later they use digicam take pics.. haha.. so fun.. and is alot.. hehe.. well. thats all.. haiz.. i'm so bored.. no one wants to talk.. my mummy also playin game.. well.. nvm.. used to boredom le.. think next week start wont be bored anymore.. aftnn can watch vcd, and play sims.. nite time watch vcd and watch tv.. hehe.. hope so lahz..

Friday, November 12, 2004 . 10:45 PM

hehe.today woke up at 9.30am.. super early hor? dono why also..maybe bcox the house so noisy bahz.. thats why.. my sistaz at hme. so will shout here and there.. noisy kids!! haha.. woke up watch tv.. watch channel U: liu mang tai yi.. hehe.. nice show.. must catch it everyday le.. haha.. den after that hmn..what did i do? forget already.. oh ya. i went to cook half-boiled eggs for breakfast which didn't turn out well.. haha.. but no choice, ate it anyway.. den after that my maid went to central to buy food.. so asked her to buy for me too.. haha.. den after eating, went my room to play computer games.. hehe.. den play and play.. so fast 3pm le. saw sher's msg.. asked me wanna go find ah pat gerald they all.. okay lor.. asked my mom and then yippEE! can go out le.. haha.. then go and bath.. haha.. by the time i reached somerset was like 4.45pm? haha.. den went heeren find sher.. she with shuling.. den after that while waitin for shuling's fren. we nth to do, so she say she go with us to cine lor.. haha.. reached there de suki sushi there.. wah, saw one whole big grp of pple.. haha.. so many lor, den later b4 we go in we went the arcade there see see.. haha.. den go find them.. lolx.. wah.. they got big appetite. . haha, when we reached there, they wanted to go off le.. so me and sher was like concluding: are they waiting for us? hehe.. after that shuling's fren come le.. den we go play pool.. at selegie road there.. and ya, btw.. the total cost for the sushi thingy was $182++.. haha.. can you believe it?? it's so ex.. lolx.. then we walked all the way from cine to selegie rd.. can you believe that?? it's so long lor.. the journey.. haha.. but quite fun.. so many of them then can walk and crap.. so long nv do that le.. lolx..

oh manz! the pool.. haiz.. totally sux at it.. haha.. hit in say only 2 or 3?? and that is for 2rounds only.. haha.. lousy rite? lolx.. wad to do? fishy only gd in swimming and running.. haha... others totally sux.. lolx.. haiz.. after that 2 rounds got to go home le.. rush home and see singapore idol results.. hehe.. yAY!! SYLVESTER IS IN!! haha.. so happy.. lolx.. think that's all for today. hehe.. so happy.. manage to see ah pat gerald they all botak.. haha, so nice to touch their hair..spiky spiky de.. hehe.. =)

Thursday, November 11, 2004 . 11:19 PM

today is deepavali.. haiz, sianz.. cant go out.. what am i going to do?? woke up at 11am and den ate breakfast and continue with lunch.. aiyah, missed the jay tv special at 10am.. argH! after lunch played some games on my computer and watched tv till 3.30pm before fallin asleep till 5.30pm.. haha.. was too tired.. and worst is my head is still spinning like hell.. everything are like turnin non-stop.. how? don wanna take medicine.. cox only make me more drowsy.. =) practically did nothing today.. just playing games on my computer, sleeping, eating and watchin tv.. my life now is just revolving around these things.. hehe.. had such a great time slackin at home i guess.. hehe.. well, luckily now, my mom nv pester me to find job.. haha, so great rite? lolx.. but i guess the next hols i better find one.. else no money le.. hehe.. still gotta get wad i want.. lolx..

mummy today online so quiet.. haiz.. so i just chat with my grandson august for a while.. he need to pia for 'O's le.. haha.. haiz.. everyone also not free now.. just make me wonder why am i online everyday when it is so boring? no one to chat with.. haiz.. a sadistic life i suppose? well, it's just a place for me to pour my grievances out.. haha.. haiz, tml both my sistaz no sch.. sickening.. dono what occassion also.. sickening lah can.. but think maybe can play with them.. hehe..

Wednesday, November 10, 2004 . 10:58 PM

well, since just now after dinner. been sneezing again.. haiz.. now my head so pain.. dono what to do also.. haiz.. where's shifu and everyone? they haven online den later i offline den they online.. haiz.. lik that den how? don go out? haiz dono also..

now chattin with my mummy. hehe.. after such a long day, he finally active during online.. lolx.. so long siaz.. haiz.. but dono why also.. think everyone are curious why i keep talking to mummy rite? haha, i also dono why.. fun to talk to and crap around i think.. but there's bound to be times when we wont talk.. and i will feel so bored.. haha.. thats me.. cannot be bored one.. haiz.. dono how am i going to explain too.. but no worries people, nothing is really up.. =) cheerz ^-^

haiz. now dono wad to do.. wad to plan. just got the feeling of wanting to sleep only.. cox i'm really so tired.. so sick.. haiz.. 3rd entry today le.. B.O.R.I.N.G
i'm really sick now. played sims just now at 1pm.. less than 1hr. feel tired so went to sleep till 5pm.. haiz... only when i'm sick then i got the capability to feel tired and sleep so long.. haiz.. out of a sudden today wake up just keep sneezing non-stop.. make my nose so pain.. haiz.. can even smell anything that is nice smell le.. just wondering how to go out tml like that? shifu, ah pat and gerald they tonite book out den i was thinkin of going sentosa since it has been so long we went there and play.. but with my current condition, i dono how.. can't let my mom noe i'm sick.. else if tml can go out become cannot go out..haiz.. tonite still gotta come online just to discuss about tml.. haiz..

my mummy MIA le.. dono wad he doing also.. haiz.. used to it le lahz.. lucky now got my mad wai suns talking to me.. also dono who is the one doing the typing. haha.. bully their ah ma.. so bad.. hehe. gotta go eat dinner le.. den continue slping for a few mins den watch tv.. hehe.
woke up so early.. haha.. played sims till 2 or 3am.. lolx.. i'm addicted to it.. hahaz.. just like the past.. everyday play sims.. till early morning 3 4am den go slp den wake up at 6am go sch.. lolx. but lucky now holiday.. haha..

wad the heck. read mummy's blog.. the entry was like 1.27am?? den he sae i very 'can' alwys no one online de.. haha, u noe gd liaoz lor.. very poor thing lehx.. and horx. he online also wrong time lehx.. haha.. alwys like that.. wad to do? haha, he's rite about one thing..lolx.. don bring me out den i fan u.. haha, but wont fan until die de lahz.. lolx.. later mummy die le nobody take care nu er lehz.. haha..

now CY they online.. hmn.. left 5 papers.. not bad.. combined human(geog), pure physics paper 1+2 -17/11, a maths paper 2 - 18/11, chem/bio(mcq) - 22/11, sci(bio paper 4) - 23/11.. hmn.. study hard lehzx.. den think they after that got class chalet.. 4 days 3 nites.. wah! so good lor, if only my class were like theirs, so united can liaoz.. junior class lehz.. haiz.. haha, den after their this class chalet, they all shen shi bball team got chalet also.. think is dec 7,8 and 9.. busy schedule.. haha.. knowing them, they are always full of things to do.. haha, arcade, pool, chalet, bball.. hmn.. wad else.. haha.. let me think..hehe..

haiz. falling sick soon.. have a slight flu and throat starting to pain le.. must be eat too much titbits liaoz.. haiz. wad to do? at hme nth to eat only those biscuits and titbits.. haiz, felt as though i'm suffering deep inside my heart now. sinking down to my own sorrows. living in my own world of fantasy. haiz.. i really hope that the memories wont sink back to my mind, i dont wanna think about those memories anymore. i need to have my own determination to rid all memories that were once so happy and sad. yup, all except the days where 3e5 and 4e5 were together. other than those, i really don want anymore things. it's the present now. the present that has made me smile most of the times. haiz. i just dono what to do at all..

Tuesday, November 09, 2004 . 11:08 PM

haiz. where is my mummy? not online.. wad the heck he doing now? lolx.. reading fan-fic? hw's not watching tv.. so playing game or reading? haha.. haiz, mummy ar, u she de make ur nu er so bored when she online ar? haha, i not online u dono how to use hp and sms me ask me online meh? haiz.. anyway, mummy said what i wrote ytd about him watch tv, play game, read comic, slp etc. he still sae he got go out.. which is very very seldom.. haha..

now chatting with alvin.. well, still asking me if i'm going for the class chalet.. haiz.. what can i say? i really dono.. my siang ge and lalang going.. dodo and panda also going.. it' like all my cliques are there.. and i miss them so.. should i go or should i not? really dono.. hesistating now.. the cost now cut to $10 for those going to the bbq only.. maybe i shud go since alvin is putting so much effort into it and he really misses the class being so noisy and crappy.. discuss with my mom when the date is nearer.. yup, but i think i can go also, since it's my hols and i got nothing to do, and all my frenz are there.. haha.. hope that's the case lahz..

haiz, i'm really very bored. sher's comp went crazy.. mummy not online. . haiz. i'm left alone.. yup, again a.l.o.n.e.. well, this thought of being a.l.o.n.e really terrifies me.. haiz, sometimes i just wish there will be a shoulder for me to lean on. how i really need it. i'm really tired of going through everything myself. things felt so heavy. i may laugh. i may be happy. but this heavy feeling wont just go away so easily. haiz.. what should i do now that i'm feeling this way again? tell me.. argH!

**PS: ai zheng de xu yao yong qi.. maybe liking you is a crime to me. cox i never really meant to fall for you. what then is not a crime? haiz..
well, today is my 2nd sister and Dodo birthday.. hehe.. just realised last nite forgot to sms Dodo.. hahaz.. maybe later on, when she is awake.. haha.. mummy still online.. haha.. he surprised me lor..tot he sae he wont online in the morning.. haha.. but at least this time he earlier than me online.. so yay! i got ppl to talk to le.. haha.. so bored.. gotta go meet hanleong lerx.. lolx.. as usual, i will be late lahz, needless to say.. haha.. whether the meetin place is near or far, i will still be late.. dono why also.. haha.. hehe.. blog at nite bahz..

Monday, November 08, 2004 . 10:55 PM

yay! finally sher HAS a bloG!! haha.. and so luckily i nv take the same blogskin as her.. lolx.. this afternoon i have been a pig.. haha.. played game in my room and then sleep. haha..

haiya, mummy watchin tv.. wad the heck lor.. today nan de can so early come in den he watching tv.. *hmpH* maybe from tmL onwards, only certain nights online also.. needless to say, morning and afternoon wont be online anymore too.. well, coz tml gotta meet hanleong to take the sims!! hehe.. finally.. den whole day i will be hiding inside my room playing game.. hehe.. haiz. anything also lahz.. wad else can my this mummy do besides watching tv, reading comics, play game, online and sleeping?? tell me something i dono.. (to mummy!.. haha)

haiya.. cant stand anymore lahz.. so bored.. now discussing with sher and aiwee where to go tml.. lolx.. haiz.. well, gotta say something.. my 2nd sis(going P5 next yr) wanted to take higher mother tongue.. oh pls manz, not i want to look down on her lahz can.. but is i just think she cant cope with it.. no doubt she got the brains, but she dont really noe how to manage her time well too.. she has tuitions which is like freaking one week how many times.. and den she got violin too.. where is she gonna find the time to go study higher mother tongue? anyway, this is none of my business too.. do wad she deem fit lor.. like i'm the one studying haha.. and plus, she came back home today just to compare with my NAPFA test when i'm in P4.. like wad the heck can.. she got bronze i gold lor.. compare wad? she sae her 1.6km run win me.. 10min 20s.. pls larhx. when i took a look at mine, it is like 10min 18s.. haha.. lose already den still want to complain and argue somemore.. lolx.. lousY!! wahaha.. anyway, really nothing to write.. so i just write about this.. haha.. this is just so.. well, cant find the appropriate words to say also.. haha. . like i care anyway..

aiyah, where is my mummy?? he dont want his this nu er le lah.. haha.. haiz, my mom's hogging on the phone with my aunt now.. talking about my sis thingy.. pls lah.. haiyo.. cant stand this lorx..

梁静茹 - 勇气

终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃
爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心
你的真心
如果我的坚强任性会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急
更害怕错过你

well, this song is meaningful rite? haiz dono where to go also.. stay home like so bored.. haiz.. dono where all my wai suns go also.. after 'O' still dono go where.. don faster come home. haha.. lolx.. b.o.r.i.n.g

Sunday, November 07, 2004 . 11:15 PM

it's so bored!! no one online at all.. mummy gotta let bro use so he offline le.. he today so gd lor.. go watch the incredibles preview.. haiya.. nv jio nu er go see.. lolx.. sae i not online.. dotx lehx.. cannot use hp call.. haha.. but anyway, that time i also outside. haha.. went out with my mom and sistaz to tampines mall and century square. argH! so crowded.. weekends are always like that? haha..

haiya, dono wad to type also.. just feeling so bored.. maybe i should offline and watch tv.. hehe.. at least today i think got nice shows to watch.. lolx..

Saturday, November 06, 2004 . 10:51 PM

well, last nite slept early. cox body muscle pain i think. must have strained it during the exam time.. cox i was lying down writing and turning around? haha.. couldn't blame me could you? sitting for 2 whole straight hours without moving.. it's gonna be so.. well couldn't find the exact word to say.. haha.. thus after sleeping for exactly 12 hours, my mom woke me up and asked me to go town with her.. so okay lor. go lor.. since staying at home gonna be so bored.. lolx.. nothing to do at all.. else stay at home i sure sleep again.. Lolx!!

ate mAc for dinner.. cox my sisterz wants them.. argh! whole week go out like have been eating fast food?? haha.. it's so fattenING!! lOlx.. next week gotta exercise.. burn the fats away.. hehe.. haiz. so bored now.. really nothing to do.. how ar? now that mummy watching vcd.. say so lame thats why watching with his mom.. =( den his nu er how? dont care le lor.. haha.. alwys like that one.. used to it le larh.. =P

mummy blog got new song!! haha.. very nice song.. by fish leong.. hehe.. his blog song alwys make me addicted de.. dono why.. haha.. =)

Friday, November 05, 2004 . 3:57 PM

since it's like so bored, so i surf friendster.. flip to his page.. hmn, guess wad i saw again? well, dono if it's true. link to her friendster. also the same. something happened between them? i dono too. look at his msn nick. has something really happened? guess he must have liked her alot.. well. guess it isnt my problem at all but why am i here writing about his things? what the hell am i doing?? argh!

now its like so so so bored.. mummy doing vacuuming the house.. haha.. so poor thing.. wake up le must do housework.. so sad.. lolx..
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updating again, just slp wake up.. haha.. haiz. lunch time got no appetite to eat(still force myself to eat though). dono why. these few weeks have been like that.. am i tired of eating? haha. but well, good also that i got no appetite to eat though i'm hungry.. can lose weight!! haha! yes, losing weight in an unhealthy way.. haha! after that, went to sleep until now.. haha.. mummy scoldin my pig le lahz.. haha.. cox i eat den slp.. what can i do in this boring day? haiz..
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Thursday, November 04, 2004 . 10:47 PM

went sch with sher.. wah so early lor.. we reached sch is like 15 mins b4 the paper?? haha... saw josel playing her hp.. steady lah she.. haha.. still got mood to play.. lolx.. thats her anyway.. hehe.. den after that she play game over le then talk.. haha, sae KP and her dear.. me and josel shouted out to KP.. haha.. so long nv see her le.. lolx!! so much fun we had before going into the exam room lor.. haha..

the paper: overall quite ok lahz.. not confident about it.. was struggling with the html and theory part.. argH! thus i anyhow think of things to crap den write it down.. haha.. dono correct anot.. don care also le lah.. html.. so confusin lor.. stupid paper! by 10.35am like that, people start leaving the room le.. sickening lorx.. den by the time papers are collected, wah turn behind, so many ppl gone.. they all pro lah can?

after exam, went to town to meet up with cass.. saw mummy and wormy they all.. so i asked wormy for his cheessecake.. sad lor, no more le.. haha.. cox spoil.. =( den a while later, mummy tell me sae he going to repair hp.. haha.. finally he is repairing his hp.. but well, in the end, the hp is not repair.. how i noe? he out of a sudden at 8.45pm sms me so suddenly.. so surprised lor.. haha, just like what he sae.. lolx.. sickening mummy.. =X

watched shark tale.. haha.. so fun the movie.. so funny.. laugh until you drop lor.. lolx.. haha.. well, those who has sher's msn can see from her nick i guess.. lolx.. shan't sae.. lolx.. after that went around walking.. dUH! it's raining pls lor.. haha, so we ended up taka for lunch, cine, taka again. den hmn.. wisma den far east.. haha.. den met up with ai wee.. den.. haha.. aiyah. lazy to type.. haha.. it's a fun day today.. hehe..

just read mummy blog for ytd.. haha.. first time hear my mummy praise me so guai.. haha.. hehe.. haha.. my mummy is the best lah.. ha ha

Wednesday, November 03, 2004 . 5:35 PM

well, just a short post maybe. finally got the hang of html codes.. but whether i can memorise which part comes first may be a problem.. well really gotta study hard for tmL's paper.. so sickening.. so tough.. haiz.. tonite not gonna online.. cox, gotta study for webp again.. my memory seems to be failing now and then.. haha.. well, relaxed enough le.. haha.. getting back to studies le..
well, guess this time i will write it for all? hahaS..

firstly, my mummy. hehe, mummy must put priority, else later don want me again.. hahaS.. hmn, read my mummy's blog.. so good lor, he can tackle html codings le, but i still cannot. haiz. den think he got problem with non-html codes.. haiz.. so difficult.. but i think he can lor.. so clever.. =) yea, i did the right thing not to talk to mummy ytd, haha, think busy studying? lolx.. hmn, he falling sick le lahz, go drink more water wor.. go rest more also.. but not sleep whole day lahz.. dont say nu er want find daddy don want care mummy hORZ!!! haha..

next, my frenz! hahaS.. i miss you guyS!! finALly tmL can see le.. lolx.. hOliday so long lor.. haiz.. tmL last papER!! yAy!!! so hAppy! haha.. let's all jia yoU!! kkz =) today 'O' level eng paper 1 and 2. how will CY, Aug that grp of ppl fare? hope they can do it! i'm sure they can.. they have higher dreams than me.. all want to get lower points than me?? hmn.. hahaS!! next week gotta help CY with his phy.. not sure if i'm able to do it, but can only tell what are the points they have to noe.. yup.. i think thats about it.. haha.. jia you!!
i miss my lalang.. my siang-ge ge. hahaS.. so long never see them.. think its like 7mths? or 5 mths? haha.. dono also.. only noe i very long never see them le.. =P

kkz, maybe update later, it's still so early.. go try out the html codes first.. =)

Tuesday, November 02, 2004 . 11:20 PM

haha, been so happy that i've been studying today.. the whole day.. haha.. only when it's time to watch tv and eat.. lolx.. felt surprised myself too.. haha.. oh mANz! watch the 9pm show.. haha.. toro so shuAi!!! LOlx.. sher went offline early.. she got a headache.. haiz, less one person to talk to.. mummy also busy studying so dont disturb... haiz.. so bored.. where are everyone now??
been studying today.. but what i studied can it get into my head? haiz, i dono also lehz.. felt like sleeping but couldn't haiz. what's into me? Ans: i dono! argH! the computer is running super slow.. how come? ytd use is still ok.. but now.. duHZ! whAT the hell did my sister do to the comp?? haiz.. if anything is gonna happen to this comp, i sure kana scold de.. cox i used it everyday.. but well, it's not my fault wad.. the world is just so unfair!!

my mummy comp fixed ok le.. haha, wormy helped him fix one.. such a genius manz wormy.. lolx.. haha.. alright, getting back to my studies.. =P
cant stand the boredom at home anymoRE!!!!!!!!!! dyIng of boRedOM manz!!! whAt is Life noW?? haiz..

CY just told me the SS today. haha.. come out all sec 3 topics no sec 4.. sian diao.. sec 4 topic like seems more interesting.. haha.. well, but at least he noe how to do can le lah.. tml is eng paper 1 and 2.. thurs maths paper 1 and fri is a maths paper 1.. damn slack lor.. that meanz for next week or so, haha, they gonna pia like siao.. haha.. same as last yr also.. lolx.. hey aiwee, tmL muSt jia yOu lehz!! cannot try lorx.. is muSt do well.. kkz? hmn.. mummy not online, sher not online. everyone doing wad? studying? well, i guess so.. except maybe for mummy.. haha.. jkjk.. later he see this gonna sae me again.. haha.. =P think i gotta go study too.. except that i don have the tutorial answers.. sianz! but it's the last paper! so let's get it done and over with.. yeA! finally got the song out from the blog le.. haha.. so clever.. lolx.. hehe..

**PS: where are everyone?? haiz..

Monday, November 01, 2004 . 11:16 PM

well, gotta clarify what mummy had just said: that i like to look at shuai ge alot and alwys pull him in? haha. abit true lahz.. but regarding i am a pig? well, gotta speak up now. haha.. not i want to wake up and then slp again de lor.. haha.. is tired mahz.. just lately only.. haha, cox really too bored, nth to do thats why.. cannot blame me wad.. haha.. i where got everytime sad de? sad is becoz my mummy don love me le mahz.. haha, neglect me. don want find one daddy. lolx.. joking haha.. but quite true lahz. i very negative thinking.. thats me! hehe.. and thAts yoU! my mummY! haha.. as usual, so lame and crappy.. and of coZ nAggy!! haha.. master the arts of nagging le arhx? thANkz to me rite? hehe...


this post is specially for my mummy de haha.. he complain that wad i sae about him playing games and sleeping is wrong. so well now here goes:

my mummy is a very good mummy. not only playing game and sleeping is what he is best at, but studying also.. haha. just like how he tell me he read through webp lecture notes.. and pls, is READ through only.. read through will go in de ar? haha, but nvm, i also just read through. don't even noe what will come out for the paper.. haha, just let nature take its own course.. hehe..

see mummy, write one specially for you leh.. wad u want me to edit somemore tell me.. haha..
so bored. no one online. dono where mummy go.. haha..must be playing game or sleeping.. cox other than this 2 things, he wont do others.. haha.. now listening to ni zhe me she de wo nan guo by huang pin yuan. . suddenly got the urge to listen to this song(lyrics below). just dono why. made my tears roll down a number of times. i felt so lost now. why am i always crying in silence? i really dono.. i used not to hide my feelings so well, but why is it now that i can do it so well? haiz..

pondering pondering pondering.. whats up with me lately? no mood to study for examz. and this thurs is the LAST paper.. no mood to do any other things. just feel like sleeping whole day long. must be becox lately woke up at 12pm that i felt so tired now and then? well, i guess so.. plus, there are a few things on in my mind too. but i just dono how to pen it into words.. *sad*

你怎么舍得我难过 -- 黄品源

对你的思念是一天又一天
孤单的我还是没有改变
美丽的梦何时才能出现
亲爱的你好想再见你一面
秋天的风一阵阵的吹过
想起了去年的这个时候
你的心到底在想些什么
为什么留下这个结局让我承受
最爱你的人是我
你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候
没有说一句话就走
最爱你的人是我
你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多
你却没有感动过