Tuesday, May 30, 2006 . 8:45 PM

Facts are facts. We can't change facts. Especially if the things had already happened. Please get this right.

Try changing facts if you can. We have facts on our hands. Let me state for you.

Things are made clear to obey rules but what happened. Even though the weather is hot and I love to grumble about how we have to wear jeans to camp and not skirts etc, but I still obey rules.
For the very fact that from afar, I see people sitting down and laughing and talking. When we were out in the field under the hot sun.
For the very fact that the host asked us where's the others. What are we to answer?
For the very fact that you brought the wrong things out? Who do we have to blamed?
Us for you leaving early? Or you?
Just a little reminder, get your facts right before you try to do anything. For facts don't change when things have happened. They only change when things have not happened.

Case closed.

Saturday, May 27, 2006 . 9:07 PM

went for filming at khatib camp today. 8 straight hours okay?
film the parade and ceremonial(P&C) as well as the combined ceremonial rehearsals.(CCRs)
I am the camera-woman. hehe. Coz this time round, we want to let everybody to have a chance to use the camera and film rather than always the same person. And I made mistakes and both dear and Joy corrected me and taught me. These are the errors that were pointed out:

1) Find focus. Don't anyhow aim.
2) Headroom too much. But they said that the shot of the Colour party I took are nice. =)
3) Make sure left and right are balance when taking a big group of people close together.
4) Do fast pan and fast zoom when there is a need.
5) When showing massiveness, zoom out.
6) When want to show emotions, zoom in.
7) Don't cut people into half.
8) Man-pan hand power comes from the right hand.
9) Know what you are shooting.
10) Don't pan left and right then focus on object.
11) Form a Y-shape tripod from own view.

Don't know if there are anymore. But all these points are being pointed so I gotta practice more. Hehe.. Oh ya, saw Kai Feng there. And Yao Guang called but I missed it and thus he msged me. Haha.. The world is really very small. Didn't expect anybody I know to be there.

Anyway, had a fun and tiring day. Tomorrow shall be a busy day too. Have to go down to Kranji camp with Joy and JunFeng.

Thursday, May 25, 2006 . 7:50 PM

I hate ACAN!!
I swear I'm not gonna take anything to do with animation anymore!!
ACAN just sux okay. period.

I just feel so useless not knowing how to do when everyone's like doing it.
And I also don't even want to ask them coz I rather they finish doing theirs first.
Sorry. And today is Xiao Wei birthday and yet I became a spoil-sport instead.
Sorry Xiao Wei. Hope you enjoy your birthday with your frenz at nite. =)

I'm so gonna fail ACAN. Don't even know how to do. Don't even know how to visualise.
haiz.. What to do? This is life. Period.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006 . 8:48 PM

I'm so dead beat.
Everyone are once again.
Yesterday and today.
And it gonna continues till end of next week.
Someone kill us please!!

Supposed to start on ACAN. But I really can't figure out how to do.
Putting in the biped and making it nicely for dear is one big achievement. =)
But I seriously don't even know how to start..
4s.. seems so easy but yet so difficult. *sighs*
Feeling real sleepy now.
Want to sleep but can't. Life is such a torture now can.
haiz..

Everyone's so so so overworked. But luckily, Joy is one who's reasonable. Hehe. At least she promised us our holiday after Interim. Let's go eat Seoul Garden, alrights? (except for junfeng lar. coz he is vegetarian. hehe.) Give ourselves a big treat as well as a reward for slogging our days and weeks out lately. Okok? =p
This seems to be my mode of motivation. Enjoy food after Interim. hehehe..

Gonna sleep early tonite too.. Coz tmr is xiaowei birthday.. as well as pia-ing ACAN day.. Stupid ACAN!! =(

Tuesday, May 23, 2006 . 9:50 PM

bad bad bad day.
everyone is bad bad bad shape.
went filmin at National Stadium at 9am.
Early rite?
Can say after National Stadium, everyone started getting shagged. But we still dragged ourselves to Raffles Place for city shot.
Then dragged ourselves back to school for Student Dialogue and AAUP practical.

Student Dialogue.
Real Bad.. Got rebuked back instead.
So encouraging can. *rolls eye*
Complained to Jen after the whole thing is over ( she's there so quite convenient. hehe)
Then after that seng hee, dear and xiao wei came in.. Looking so pissed..
End up is because lab supposed to be FYP timeslot, one whole group, maybe equivalent to the number of computers at 2034 are playing CS or Dota. So when they tried to do some work, the computer hang coz server was lagging lar.
Anyway, Jen reassured us that something would be done.
So, hopefully lar. Since we are like really half-dead today.

AAUP Practical:
crapped lar. But we took it as a distressing session. HAhaha..Period.

Anyway, seeing what Seng Hee had been going through, I feel for him. Though I'm like Chrislyn, but if I'm single for 2 months+, I would not pester someone till this extent. What have been said has already been said.
And after reading Xiao Wei's blog, I understand what she has been through. She's someone who is really very strong to overcome all these by herself. Although the hurt and scars that has been inflicted on her, she still managed to come this far. She'a a brave little girl. =)
So Xiao Wei, if you see this post, don't be sad okay? We will survive. That's our goal.
To survive through this 2 weeks.

Monday, May 22, 2006 . 9:32 PM

Haven been updating. But actually, also nothing much lar. hehe..

Today went to sing kboX with produzione. This time is the whole group. hehe. Sing alot of songs. So Shuang. hehe..
Anyway, went to Joy's house after that. Coz dear wanted to modify the tortoise we have den I crapped with Joy and played with her torty. hehe. =)

And during the weekends, played games the whole day. Never even start on ACAN. Coz felt abit sianz when going to do ACAN. hehe..

Haiz, Friday gottta hand in the milestone for ACAN. Sianz lar.. And this whole practically whole week is filming day.. AHH!!!! How to finish ACAN?? Hope tomorrow Student Dialogue will have some effectiveness lar. =P

[As a friend, is being over-concerned too much?] *ponderrs*

Friday, May 19, 2006 . 1:27 AM

knowing that you still love me is enough.
it's always been like this. You talk and I cry. Till all my tears run dry.
But most importantly, the issue has been resolved.

We have been tired lately. So I guess, everyone's not in the very best of mood.
Sorry that I never tried to understand what you have been feeling yesterday.

I know I have made you confused on what I really want.
But I guess, I will stick to what I have told you. (Pls save it inside your hp, otherwise next time I change and contradict myself again. =p)

I hurt you deep enough with my words today.
And I never even want it to really happen.
It happened once before, when I was in Sec 4. (I know you don't like me to think back of the past)
Never will I want it to happen again..
I don't ever want to lose someone who truly loves me and whom I truly love again.
Coz once is enough.

Sorry Dear..

Thursday, May 18, 2006 . 3:02 PM

it's my fault.
everything is my fault.
My fault for not letting you know what happened.
My fault that you didn't get to read the previous posts I had for you.

wad ck say was right..
guys will always say gals are in the wrong whereas gals will always say guys don't care enough for them.

I'm not like Joycelyn who can be independent.
I'm more like Chrislyn who always wanted someone to care for her.

You asked me not to assume too much.
Am I really assuming too much?

That's what happens when a gal is thinking negatively..
Will you ever understand that kind of feeling?
*sighs* it's almost 1am.
can't sleep yet..

sick.. lost of sleep.. ending up having insufficient sleep.. which in turn can't recover fast..
and now my voice is practically half-gone. hopefully morning will be okay..

11+ was the first msg I received from him after the incident happened..
Just to say he's going to sleep.. 1 sentence is missing.. but yet, I'm not quite willing to say what's the sentence..

This makes me really wonder if he ever regretted this relationship..

Negative I may sound. But I can't help it.
I just don't feel anything.
Sorry if I ever doubt you in the previous post as well as this..

Sorry

Wednesday, May 17, 2006 . 8:50 PM

Sometimes, I feel I'm not good enough for you.
And it happens everytime when I threw my temper at you.
I really shouldn't have thre my temper at you.
It's not your fault...
It's all mine..

If I didn't fell sick..
Then I wouldn't get irritated easily..
Then I wouldn't show you any temper..
Sorry..

I know you have been hearing it so many times when I'm being unreasonable..
I don't know if you mind..
Coz you always say it's ok..
Does it really not matter?
Only you know the answer..

Sunday, May 14, 2006 . 10:55 PM

today:
HAppy mother's day! woke up at 10.45am.. as usual.. but this time its like only a few hours sleep. Well, because last nite was down with flu, so slept early at 11.30pm. Then every 2 hours I will be waking up for no reason. And in between of the two hours sleep, had dreams.. about our fyp and many more. Then end up, woke up at 6am to take panadol coz headache. Then after taking panadol, finally fell asleep. Hehe..

Anyway, today went to my uncle house coz their grand-daughter 1 yr old. So went there then abt 4pm left to come home.. Reach home and I fell asleep.. all the way to 6.30pm. And now I feel like sleeping too..

yesterday 13/05/05 (Saturday):
woke up abt 10.30am like that.. Slept late last night. Hehe.. Also not say very late lar. Shall say later. Anyway, did nothing much.. Only that dear came down at about 4+ in the afternoon then at night we did the animatics.. in case junfeng couldn't present on wed you know. haha. Anyway, dear left at abt 9+ for seng hee house.. He going over seng hee house to watch football.. coz got livepool.. and know what? Liverpool so tyco last minute shoot in another goal lor.. then become draw.. and then gotta have extra time which liverpool won.. Dotz lar. Slept early coz fell sick. =(

friday 12/05/06:
sher bday.. Happy Birthday sHeR! hope you like the presents. =)
supposedly go swimming in the morning but that dumb 2nd sis of mine.. coz knee got abrasion so don't want to go.. But, we went to my cousin house in the afternoon.. All the ah yi are there.. then it seems like Vesak Day = Popiah Day. Haha.. Coz they made popiah and I made too.. only not as nice as my cousin lar. Haha.. Then about 5+, walked to Kembagan MRT station to meet aiwee and dear.. then waited for wz kp they all.. before headin to sher house.. her mom came to pick us up. =) Anyway, long story. haha.. but had fun celebrating her bday.. =) thANks sher! hehe..

thursday 11/05/06:
went sch for aaup lecture. crap lor. coz keyboards came already. like duh.. then go makan and did treatment.. then home sweet home. =)

Wednesday, May 10, 2006 . 10:31 PM

today:
met joy and dear for lunch at fc4. then after lunch, talk talk.. had gems.. quite fun hehe.. this is the 2nd time i'm loving my gems. hehe. anyway, after gems, went to get sher's bday present.. (**PS: sher, u want to know what is it? On friday larh. Hahaha..)
Then after buying, went to see what we can get for seng hee.. And we found it. But need to discuss. =) Went home after that. And I have been playing yahoo pool! since I came home.. with dear.. hehe.. and I thrashed him most of the time. hehe..

yesterday 09/05/06
went to school at 8AM for ACAN tutorial cox monday we didnt go.. was so tired.. but anyway, I enjoyed the tutorial.. HAha.. coz it's so stress-free and more livelier than my usual tutorial class.. Maybe got kp weizhen they all.. But really, the lesson is so much more fun. =) After that, went fc4 eat breakfast then had meeting.. Short meeting only.. to discuss when and who will do the 1st tier of the project. After settling everything, slacked and waited for 12pm to arrive. Coz.. it's studio time!
Had so much fun doing the recording.. maybe except dear's group. As usual lar. haha.. and poor little boy he got sick. hehehe.. But surprisingly, after recording, he looked better. Hehe.. When the time is up, we packed up and waited for AAUP practical. Glad to say, I made the right choice by taking AAUP. Reason being, the lecturer, Geoffery is so nice.. to teach us many many things. Things we weren't even aware of. =) And through him, we knew our recording is wrong coz we used the wrong mikes. And thus, we will be recording tomorrow and next tuesday.
Talked to wz at night till this morning. She doesn't seems to be in a good shape. (**PS: Weizhen, rest well and take care of yourself ah.. And remember what I say ah!! Golden words you know. hehehe..)

Monday, May 08, 2006 . 9:44 PM

today:
went to meet LTC Stevens at Funan Mac. As usual, our meeting place. hehe.. But today got the other group so okays. haha.. den update him on the progress of our work and stuffs. The same usual stuffs.. Then he told us there's a meeting today and it might be good for us to go down.. So, emergency happen liao lor.. Got make up ACAN tutorial at 2pm. Then how? End up we decided not to go.. but being Mr Good Guy, Junfeng.. he went alone. So no choice lor. He go then we go meet client. =)

Abt 3pm, we felt so sian diao coz Junfeng sms and say tomorrow must join the other ACAN tutorial class at 8am. WTF!! Can't that dumb lecturer fix it on another day.. Why die die must be tomorrow lor? Sickening.. And worst is, it is just to pose our character pose. -_-'' Thought he will be doing the character traits and concept art.. Dotz lar..

Anyway, today abit not smooth sailing for us..

Sat and Sun (6-7th May):
Did nothing. Sleep, Eat, Play, Watch tv and Sleep. hehe.. End of weekends. My weekends are usually like that. No choice. Hehe..

Fri (5th May):
Went for ACAN practical. That mario teach so fast how to follow up.. Then ask that ISsac yAp got word document for us to follow anot end up he announced to the whole class and say its from the 3ds Max Tutorial Help. Then say we are Year 3 already. Should be independent. Then say if got word document doesn't mean we can come in late or not do practical. Like what the hell.. Is can't follow up that's why ask for word document lor.. Think I so bo liAo ask for word document for a module I not interested ah? *roll eyes*

Anyway, after mario teach hao, we( me, xiaowei, alan and joy) went to print things first then when we came back, we saw Junfeng presenting the story idea to issac yap. Dear was so angry that he asked junfeng to go out and gave him a tongue-lashing. First time see him scold people.. so fierce lor.. Scare me also.. BUt well, it was junfeng's fault that he didn't ask for permission to take the storyboard out from Alan's bag.

went town walk walk after class.. bought my bag. hehe.. thankew dear. hehe.. then went home..

Thursday (4th may):
had project meeting with jen. went to the meeting room. hehe. so cool.. well, basically the meeting was more of updating and sharing of ideas. Then after that, JEn needs to do her things so we went to brainstorm and finalise the ideas for the 2nd and 3rd tier. Then went home.

Haiz.. things happened again. Can't they do a project in peace? Can't they be like before? It's so saddening to see your friends suffering.. When the person isn't worth for her to suffer at all..

Wednesday, May 03, 2006 . 9:40 PM

okays. needless to say, the day today is extremely terribly bad!
why?

Reason 1:
went to school to discuss ACAN thingy with dear and junfeng. Discussed till I become damn stress and abit bu shuang. Coz our story is damn freaking ddrraaggggyy (draggy).... and there are too many high and low points that I need to draw for the tension graph. It's the due to the fact that I'm lazy to draw or what that's why I complain, but seriously, the storyline is very draggy.. when basically we can just reach climax and fall down again.. what to do.. end up, while eating, junfeng drew the tension graph. -_-'' A sigh of relieve people would say so that I would not get so stressed up.. But it's my job to draw the tension graph!! Like that, my ACAN no need marks liao lar? Steady le lor.. Quite saddening to have people who do one-man work lar..

Reason 2:
had ACAN lecture. everything was quite smooth until when want to end class but he like still want to continue rattling about Animation thingy.. he started saying the same things AGAIN! About how DMMT students who go to his brother company (Animation company) but do not know how to do graphic designing. Like wtf, what has animation gotta do with graphic designing lar duh.. maybe to a certain extent? *shrugs* Anyway, he continued saying how DMMT people cannot be like DCMD people who knows how to design and animate.. WTF la! Really don't understand why this know-it-all lecturer just like to condemn DMMT people.. We may not be as good in animation, but hellooo.. DMMT people knows video and audio. Do the DCMD people know? DMMT people knows about programming but does the DCMD people know? Get your stuffs right first lar duh!
Oh well, as it was already 1pm, dear suddenly interrupted that lecturer and said we got gems. Funny lar.. And that lecturer still can say give me 1 more min. PLease lo, 1 min very precious leh.. can do many things.. we do not want to hear your condemnation lar.. *roll eyes*
How sick can this lecturer be huh? But anyway, dear said he wanna have a petition about this stupid person as to why a lecturer can condemn students that are taking a diploma introduced by the school? One thing for sure, that person who condemn DMMT students is a no brainer who only knows how to talk BIG! period.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006 . 10:45 PM

spend my days watching jewel in the palace. hehe. nice nice.. watched it with my mom till everyday 2am. coz long holiday mah..
anyway, went out with dear on sun.. for a few hours only.. coz someone lor.. nite time must celebrate fren b-day also don tell me earlier.. else can stay hme sleep le. hehe.. =X

den monday being labour day. slept whole day. Labour day is a day where we will relax and not do any work. Thus without doing any work, we will need to conserve the energy for next few days or even weeks rite? hehe..

today, went for the sponsorship luncheon. met up with joy and seng hee first at tampines den met dear at city hall to go to dhoby ghaut to meet up with ben(our contact for sponsorship) to send us to the place where they gonna have their luncheon. had a small snack at kfc first den meet up with ben coz he late mah. hehe..
anyway, went to the place where the luncheon is being held - Masonic Restaurant. Quite nice the ambience. hehe.. the rest is all the project stuffs liao. yup.. den ben send us back to SP. Quite a nice guy huh? hHahaa.. celebrated joy bday.. =) and had AAUp pract.. learnt about the pro TOol 24 control again.. learnt more.. hehe.. =)