Friday, July 30, 2004 . 11:35 PM
today is a miracle.. joseph is early for fetching game.. haha.. cox i say him ytd.. haha.. today when reached school, me and cher go FC6 eat breakfast.. yea.. talked about brandon and CF.. den later she sae bout me.. haha.. hmn.. she asked when me and joseph getting together.. i sae haha..impossible.. thats wad i think.. asked what really happened so i say lor.. not so detailed lah.. lazy say..lOlx.. hmn.. she's quite rite that all is too fast..and acceptable that time is needed.. she den asked if he noes what i thinking.. how would i noe? maybe yes maybe no bahz.. i also dono.. cox he is juz like no reactions to anything at all.. ya.. maybe thats how he keep himself being a happy-go-lucky person bahz.. yea.. asked her the meanin of love and concern to her.. den she sae actually love doesn't really refer to bgr things.. ya.. haiz.. juz don feel like talkin about this thing liaoz.. already 23 days since 7/7 le.. i see no point in saying this kind of thing.. really no point.. cox no matter how close we may be, we are still frenz.. yup!haiz.. today the gdit like cannot make it! still have to go back sch to do tml.. hATe it! i hate gdit! everything juz dont work out!! haiz..so irritated by it! after class go cafe.. joseph with his fren there discussin their project.. den i there wait for cher to come cox she end at 4.. dono why so early also.. haha.. haiz.. damn frustrated abt that gdit thing.. monday due liaoz.. left 3 days to piA! scared cannot make it how? haiz~
where to go tml? feel like slacking outside after doing the gdit.. den go bugis take disc from huiyi den go hme.. haha.. dono! s.i.a.n.z.a.t.i.o.n...
Thursday, July 29, 2004 . 11:18 PM
hmn.. smsed him the answer last nite.. haha.. asked him that is it so important for him to noe the answer.. he sae ya cox he curious to noe what i thinking.. hmn.. the answer is so obvious muz he need me to spell it out for him? haiz.. den in the end he sae he go lala land liaoz..den ok lor, tell him good nitez and i miss him... see! i told him the answer liaoz..I HATE josEPH!!! today fetchin game wasn't quite fun.. cox he was late.. as usual.. so we met him at dover there.. and cher went for her class.. so left me and sher waitin for him.. wah.. he late for his class le.. 20 mins like that.. he still can buy ice milo siaz.. cant stand him..alwys like that haha..
after class today, we all go and pia the gdit: collage.. and he and his frenz at lab do their assignment also.. suddenly all my frenz come..haha.. kahpeng, josel, sher, mel etc... den very noisy.. haha.. changed idea again.. usin back my maze.. ya.. buthen this time take a little idea from joseph also.. frenz finding each other in maze.. not a bad one rite? we do until 7.45pm like that den go back home.. felt so tired..nv slept last nite.. haiz.. later still not going to sleep again.. roughly roughly pia the write up den can slp better.. haha.. now chattin with brandon.. good news! he and CF together liaoz.. started today.. he asked in front of her frenz.. so sweet rite? haha.. all the best brandon!
missing someone now.. someone who always MIA.. someone who ai mei alot, someone who zi lian kuang alot.. someone who is ALWAYS LATE.. haha.. who is that? hmn.. for me to noe, for you to find out.. haha.. haiz.. now all i noe is after all the hurt that i've been through, i really don want myself to get hurt anymore... very afraid of gettin hurt now.. ya.. k, me log off liaoz..
===---All the best to brandon and CF~---===
===---Missing you lots.. why is this so? ---===
Wednesday, July 28, 2004 . 11:35 PM
cant believe that when i am supposed to do my collage now and here i am blogging.. haha.. waht a joke manz. lOlx.. this morning played fetchin game with joseph and cherene.. joseph was unexpected de... only when he sae he nv play with sherilyn cox he's latE!! as usual, always late for class, late when meeting us.. so idoitic huh? but anyway. his class start at 9.30am, and he asked us to meet him at 9.30am.. unbelievable! he will be super duper late lor.. but he juz doesn't care.. haha.. like mE! lolx.. on the train, he told alot of lame jokes.. haha.. got one is super duper lame! ya.. until you juz cant think of any other thing to sae.. haha.. left him alone to walk to his class.. cox me class were at the mrt station.. haha.. so sad.. lolx..felt so tired today.. need more sleep cox it's like i have been havin sleepless niteS? ya.. thats what i think.. cox everyday now i have been sleepin 12am to 1am.. but in the end, end up turning and tossing on my bed.. haiz.. how? tonite den update again.. go do up my collage liaoz..
omG! damn frustrated now! can't burn the 3d max and all.. haiz.. since the moment i came home and settle down, i have been like facin the comp liaoz.. until now.. and tonite.. cox i don think tonite i'm gonna have my sleep.. haiz.. have to pia the gdit: collage.. starting to hate this now.. how? yes! finally able to burn out the pictures liaoz.. after muz rewriting disc haha. finally got the pics in.. hehe.. so happy.. hmn.. haha
changed my msn nick to [ShU`hUi] - [Why make me miss you so much when I tried not to think about you?] - ya, this is it! he asked who i miss.. and i juz sae haha.. nobody.. i miss him but do i have to tell him? i dono! all can be seen through this blog and my nick.. it's very very obvious i noe.. but i really do miss him.. and i juz don want to tell him i miss him.. he going offline le.. so i tell him sae later tell him the answer.. haha.. keke.. me go offline also.. go pia liaoz...
*I miss you? I don't miss you? it's for me to noe and for you to find out.. *
Tuesday, July 27, 2004 . 11:21 PM
all MIA from msn..fine.. so bored! so sad now.. mood changes when one juz doesn't feel rite..what should i do? asked kaifeng the same question i been askin.. his is quite ok.. sounds rite.. but.. haiz.. dono lahz.. maybe i juz give up better? ya? but i still want him to be my angel.. at least i noe someone will be there for me..what should i do? can someone advise? really felt so lost now.. thats my idea for my gdit collage.. haiz.. how? confused!!Monday, July 26, 2004 . 11:15 PM
hmn.. today is monday.. as usual.. went to school early.. haiz.. today lessons are boring! i hate it! dono why juz no mood to study or listen to wad the heck the lecturers are talking about.. too tired liaoz.. went to bugis today with sher.. haha.. go back OG(A) to buy giordano stuff.. bought new round neck tee today.. hehe.. ya.. now havin mass chat.. so many pple.. scary.. lolx.. joseph has been MIA.. oh no! haven do my DBMS tutorial.. die!! got to go laioz..Sunday, July 25, 2004 . 10:31 PM
hmn.. today did nothing much.. juz playing games on my computer.. ya. woke up early in the morning to tampines stadium with my dad for morning jog.. haiz.. run less than 1km den cannot make it liaoz.. haiz.. suddenly it juz feels like ICT FO camp city hunt that time.. when we really run and run.. till images around me seems faint.. ya.. thats how i felt during city hunt.. but at least i got run stop run stop.. no wonder i will fall sick during 2nd of camp.. sad! haiz.. joseph not online.. so sianz..nothing to do.. lucky got jianming and sher to talk to me..haha.. so long nv talk to jianming liaoz.. haiz.. nothing to sae about today.. juz feeling very tired now.. but muz stay up to watch GTO! haha...-~*i want to be the angel by ur side if possible and i also want you to be the angel by my side.. cox at least when we both have problems, we can confide in each other..*~-
Saturday, July 24, 2004 . 11:20 PM
haiz, really damn sad.. last nite smsed shifu and jimmy.. i told them that i feel like giving up liaoz.. cox it's like a one-way traffic.. ya.. shifu told me to follow my heart and that if i got the confidence, things will work out.. jimmy told me that this kinda things cannot force and have to let nature take its own course.. i'm doing that rite now.. haiz.. joseph.. what should i do?today woke up at 11am.. woah.. so early.. haha.. nice to sleep wad.. coz it's raining! then afternoon, abt 2+, went to great world city and then to carrefour.. go stock up things at home, else there is nothing to eat liaoz.. haha.. i noe.. i'm a PIG! Lolx.. smsed joseph.. asked him what he's been doing.. haiz.. he told me he juz don like his life.. i asked why.. and he told me.. what exactly is the love and concern that he has been searching for.. and what exactly is the love and concern that i want?? this question really made us pondered alot.. asked jimmy this question.. he said: love is a kind of special feeling.. what u mean by i love u.. it is will u see a person u love.. u will want to keep looking at that guy more and more, when that guy needs some help or someone to talk to, u will always be there.. u will like to keep a close distance with that person,
when u are lonely or bored, u will hope to see a msg from that person, when u see him for 1 hour, it is like 1 sec, u will feel very very very happy and xin fu..concern. it is kinda of a different meaning from love, the diff is that u won't feel uncomfortable when u dun see that person, concern is something like brother and sisters relationship.. asked josel for the defination.. hers is not bad.. but too bad i closed the window liaoz.. this is really a killer question..
now i finally noe what he is thinking.. thats why there is no 7/7.. no one has been able to understand his feelings and all.. cox he kept everything to himself.. he doesn't show his expressions to others.. thats why no one has been able to understand him.. he is really like me.. i can advised him not to keep things to himself and a ll..but what about me.. haiz.. i cant do that! and i dono why.. i got my answers now.. answers to all my unanswered questions.. but.. one thing that is still troubling me is.. what should i do now that i have all my answers? i still want to hold on.. to be his so-called angel to stay by his side so that whenever he is unhappy, he can share his thoughts and problems.. can say i don want him to be unhappy.. juz want him to be happy bAhx.. ya.. hmn.. i gotta offline liaoz.. have to wake up early tml for jogging..
Thursday, July 22, 2004 . 10:45 PM
hmn..today played fetchin game.. ya.. communication breakdown.. loLz but okay lah.. quite fun.. reached school den he go to mlt11..den later me and sher go 3rd level..after that he came out chat for a while.. like this also can.. haha.. today webp very tired.. create the site until oMG! i got tired of it.. den wanna stop.. but luckily when i feel like stopping, only got 30 mins left den end le.. haha.. but overall quite fun lah.. got to learn new things.. den see the flash.. i like sua ku like that.. haha.. like nv see before.. so idoitic rite me? den today crs very fun.. haha.. joke around.. den dbms lecture.. i never listen.. cox i was like feeling so tired.. dono why.. out of a sudden.. haiz.. so i juz got out a piece of paper and started writing.. ya.. when i started writing.. my mood changed.. i become very very quiet.. juz need to be alone.. all happened very suddenly.. haiz..went to club room when lecture end.. joseph is inside.. i go in, put bag den go out for a while.. cox it's like, really since started writing on the paper in dbms lecture.. i become so quiet.. why? why? why? went inside the club room, den hugged my bag and close my eyes.. though it's noisy.. but who cares.. as long as someone is playing the guitar can liaoz.. haha.. ooPZ.. it cant be! am i interested in guitar? oh no! juz stopped my piano not long ago, and here i am interested in guitar.. OMG! haha.. learn myself and all will be alrite.. feel that i'm one who alwys do things halfwae den give up.. will be this the same as in waiting for another 7? i dono.. i hope so not..
haiz.. people asked if i am sad that there is no 7/7.. wad should i sae? sad will feel abit.. but it's been like 2 wks plus liaoz.. ya.. got many many things that i'm so uncertain of.. need them to be answered but who can give me my answers.. haiz.. maybe only he bahz.. will he ever see this blog i also dono.. haiz~
**i wanted an answer which i can never find.. an answer which can never be answered by me or other people.. what should i do? who can really give me my answer?? **
Wednesday, July 21, 2004 . 11:00 PM
hmn.. today started off not bad.. ya.. woke up so early cox kana woke up lor.. no one noes i start late today..but nvm.. cox when i woke up, on my hp.. saw his sms..ya.. playin fetching game with him.. so i told sher and cher and they will alright with it.. oh yea manz! haha.. today at train really fun.. took pictures with sher digital cam.. haha.. had lotsa fun.. at least he looks quite ok liaoz.. he so ke lian, muz take so many medicine...after lesson, left alone again..sher went west mall watch mean girls with her class gals.. cher went orchard shoppin with her class..and me..go club room slack..haha.. lucky got jimmy, pat, joanna they all..else i really very cham.. a while later, joseph came in den went for his bible study liaoz.. hmn.. waiting for him? ya.. since i nothing better to do everytime..haha.. abt 4+, pat, jimmy they all went for movies.. mean girls again!! arGH! i want watch mean girLS!!!! then i am left alone in the club room.. haiZ~ den abt 5.30pm like that, sher call sae she finish the movie liaoz.. so later when i going home le, den call her den meet up.. joseph haven end yet.. so sad.. den when 6pm reach le, i go hme.. den walk thru the SAC which is our usual route to mrt.. den saw joseph!! wah..call him nv answer.. Hp silent mode, vibration mode go crazy.. haha... after that we went home..me sher and joseph.. walk together with him to mrt.. i think he going to recover liaoz.. he rest more then ok le.. cox he is back to his being so crappy.. ai mei pattern liaoz..haha.. on the train.. tried makin his hair messy but cannot.. haha.. he don allow! so wad do you think? he's alright le lah..haha.. kkz.. gtg liaoz.. tml still playin fetchin game..
Tuesday, July 20, 2004 . 10:19 PM
19/7/04 (Monday)hmn.. someone fell sick liaoz.. quite suddenly.. jammin too much?? don think so.. think weather fault.. cox weather not very good.. haiz.. he ytd really look like rudolf the red nose reindeer siaz.. nose so red.. den somemore ytd he came to sch at 1pm..and end at 5pm.. so idoitic rite? hope he recover soon.. cox i still prefer the joseph when he is not sick.. even though he sick still can abit ai mei.. buthen he not zi lian kuang when he sick.. plus he sick can scold alot of things de.. me, sher and joseph went club room put bag den go FC3 eat dinner.. haha.. go there saw jimmy, james, synmun, liping and joanna, so we join them.. yea.. heard many many things.. things that were not true.. which caused alot of people to be sad and angry.. haiz.. hope everything would be alright.. jimmy.. cheer up manz.. ok? don let wad others say affect you.. thats the you i noe.. ya.. no matter what happens, you still have as us frenz.. ok? nite time went online.. asked jimmy how he feeling..glad he felt ok after kana suan by kelvin and brandon.. haha.. 3 cheers for them! oopZ, someone asked if i liked joseph..what am i going to answer.. cox it's like, ok, i like him..den came another question: does he noe i like him.. hmn.this is a difficult question to be answered.. he noes.. ya.. chat with brandon too..told him certain things.. ya..abt me and hiM? sort of.. i asked brandon if i like him was obvious and he sae ya cox everyone can see lorx... cox wherever i am, he will appear also.. same thinking? hmn.. dono.. only sometimes is sms him den juz gd we also shun lu mahz.. plus brandon sae he also got informants who can see i like him and he like me? hAIz.... juz suddenly feel so distant from him.. dono why also.. juz feel that way.. maybe it's my negative thinking.. which i hate it! always makin me sad.. haiz.. he is not online.. after online smsed him, he nv reply.. so i guessed he's asleep? ya.. i think he is.. cox he look really sick.. haiz.. he really needs to take care of himself now..
today(20/7) did nothing much..today finally mORG practical not boring haha.. lessons end very early.. at 1pm.. saw kaifeng and his frenz at level 3 so chat with kaifeng lorx.. until sher end her class..haha.. kaifeng they doing their yr end project so don wanna disturb them..so i there kept quiet..buthen when they crap, i also crap with them lorx..haha.. den after that went club room, sher went to meet cass at somerset..den later cher end le she went home..so left me alone.. but luckily got brandon they all..else i really sianz.. that period of time when i smsed him and he nv reply.. i was like quite sad? ya.. dono wad happen to him.. so i went home.. until i reach tampines liaoz, den saw his sms.. his fren using his phone.. so ok.. fine.. at least he replied.. and i don need to worry liaoz... haiz.. he these few days not coming online cox he still sick.. so i think i also don online these few days.. go slp early better.. ya.. really hope he get well soon.. miss the old joseph..hahaz.. muZ take care of yourself if you ever see this ok?
chattin with chongyong now.. haiz.. things change alot..so many of them drop subjects.. haiz.. my junior class lehz.. how can? kana force also don drop..die die don drop.. muz be like 4e5(2003).. no matter how hard teachers criticised us.. we heck care.. so many things had happened.. if Cy nv update me, i really dono whats up with them now.. haiz.. Cy, be strong ok? no matter what happen, it's over liaoz.. juz concentrate on your prelims and 'O'.. everything can be solved after 'O'.. ya? august dropped his d&t.. and sze lOon dropped a-maths.. oMG! why they all ... haiz.. they really lost their confidence manZ..thats wad i think.. please no matter what don give up now.. okAy guYS? muZ prOMise me thAT when next yr u guyS take results.. muz be like me.. a miracle happen! i pAssed all.. okay? don give up so easily guys! jia you! cheerZ~
-~*what should i do now? haiz.. don give up guys.. tell yourself you can do it!*~-
Wednesday, July 14, 2004 . 10:50 PM
woAH.. how many days nv blog le.. give an update on whats happening.. yea.. on sat which is 10/07.. went to sentosa with its fun.. fun till i got sick..haha.. we played many games.. frisbee.. captain ball..etc.. we also threw people down water.. and i was the first to kana.. somemore 3 times.. the water was freakin cold.. yea.. and when i stood up.. shiverin manz..den someone was not there somemore.. haiz.. SAD!!!!! its only evening time when we going to go to cineleisure for dinner den i saw him.. he felt sick that day too.. i think he kana heat stroke.. weather that day not too good too.. rain den shine.. den rain and shine.. reach home about 1130pm.. went to bath again.. think it is becoz i bathe too late thats why i fell sick the next day.. with flu and cough..monday.. start of sch again.. i loVe it... haha.. buthen got drawing.. which i hate.. felt so sick on monday.. after class go cafe.. buthen went there a while den go back..cox really nt feelin well.. got new scandal.. james and my GL.. syn mun..haha.. whether it's the truth or not i dono.. haha.. club really has lotsa scandals..
tues.. which is ytd.. omG! had MORG...BORING!!!!!don even noe what the lecturer talkin until another lecturer came over to help us out..only den me and melissa finally got to noe what everything is about.. after lesson went club rm again.. thats what we have been doing almost everyday.. haiz... miss him. miss him.. thats all i can do.. haiz..
today.. wed.. quite fun.. no rain..finally.. though rained a while.. talked with kaifeng during break time..hmn..now den i noe kaifeng so noisy..haha.. as noisy as me.. of cox..he's my GL..lolx.. den today saw james, jimmy and yaoguang..ooPZ.. all thought i havin scandal with kaifeng..see their loOks noe liaoz..buthen its like dUhz! haha..quite fun lahz..chatting with kaifeng..told him bout the sentosa things.. studies etc..haha.. after class, had compulsory briefin on electives.. haizo.. sianz! but ok la.. den after that had tutorial..den go club rm.. wait for someone till so late..haha..den later go clementi eat dinner with sher, shifu and joseph... wAH damn lame lorx.. especially joseph..cant stand him.. haha..haiz..think go slp now.. else tml cannot wake up..
**nothing in the world is perfect.. and never think that I am perfect cox I dont wanna be perfect... a perfect life will never ever have a good ending.. and i want mine to be a good ending.. miss you lots**
Thursday, July 08, 2004 . 11:00 PM
hmn.. 2 days never blog liaoz.. let me give a brief recount on everything..ytd was 7/7/04.. yea.. think also sad.. but never mind.. at least i get to enjoy myself..today brandon really shout my name siaz.. at booth and at FC6.. wad the.. haha.. he also got kana say by me.. today got performance at t19.. ya, jasper grp and joseph they all.. jasper grp had a great performance... they had songs like: angel( this is so popular cox ownself compose de mahz) and tian gao di hou.. wah..really like live concert when they sang tian gao di hou.. den joseph, rudy theirs was like ok.. but the problem is that the gals sang too softly.. and by hearing wad shifu sae.. there were last minute changes in which the whole thing was not coordinated well.. after that, we went FC3 eat.. i didn't eat.. cox no appetite to eat.. nite time i was quite tired..so slept early.. at 10pm.. den suddenly abt 11+ my mom came in and sae shufang asked me for alice quek( ex-supervisor) hp number.. damn pissed off siaz.. people damn tired and was already sleepin liaoz..den..kaoz.. buthen after that i sms joseph.. yea..he busy studyin for his theory test today.. told him to jia you.. i noe he can do it de.. rite?
today rainy day.. means, the weather will be freakin cold.. almost late for WEBP practical.. haha.. found out that WEBP was actually quite fun.. yea.. then had DBMS which was abit blur buthen manage to sort out everything.. after class went club room.. den shifu came, patrick also..den all slack around club room.. den 6+ den go back.. reach home..kana say.. wah kaoz.. really no peace.. early go back or late go back also the same..hmn.. got to go liaoz.. kana chase to log off le..
Tuesday, July 06, 2004 . 11:01 PM
no more 7/7/04.. reason: need to spend more time together first den can officially.. yea.. at first when i knew about it, was quite hesistating lor.. dono why i hesistate also.. can say i dont really have the confidence bahx.. cox i noe that the inner me is getting more fragile.. but come to think of it.. if he has the confidence.. i muz also have the confidence.. rite?today MORG lesson is boring.. don even noe what the lecturer saying.. too fast for me to catch up liaoz.. but still have to learn rite? haiz.. had DBMS today.. found that it was quite interesting..
today DBMS end early den expected..haha.. went to club room and oh my goSH..haha.. all sabo brandon.. as usual..high profile person where got so easily let off de? haha.. sabo until very fun.. lolx.. poor brandon.. haha..
now chatting with brandon, shifu, cherene and sherilyn online.. yea.. kana bully by brandon.. haha.. hmn.. he told me some things which i was quite dumb-founded.. how come FO camp got rumours about me and joseph havin scandal sia? during camp, we also seldom mix with each other.. so weirdo.. hmn.. now den i realise that ICT club everybody all got scandals.. haha.. should have a scandal corner in club room.. lolx
life will be as usual tomorrow..except got cca recruitment..yea..
Monday, July 05, 2004 . 10:41 PM
today is the first day of school.. quite fun.. cox my class already noe each other durin orientation... not like cherene and sherilyn where they keep changin classes.. haha.. had drawing lessons today and it sux.. cox i dono how to draw... i fail art de lor.. haha.. my class like all talented in art sia.. haiz.. den after that got OC and IDEA.. wah..both lessons introducing sia.. very good..waste time.. haha.. but at least that really bond the class together.. yea.. we joke and lame around.. especially we all gals.. so idoitic rite? our class rep is weizhen and asst class rep is kah peng.. all kana sabo one..lolx.today after class, me, cherene, sherilyn and shifu went to SAC.. we need take the orientation stuffs.. den later we go club rm for a while den go see joseph, rudy they all jammin their guitars.. hmn... felt quite tired cox woke up super early..
haiz.. 2 more dayz.. juz 2 more days.. he seems to noe im sad these few days.. cox he read my blog..yea.. hahaz.. plus lately i really feel so shag.. so ya.. anyone can also guess that i'm sad..
Saturday, July 03, 2004 . 11:56 PM
today do nothing much..went out with charissa to far east den after walk to orchard point.. bought two polo tee from giordano.. oh mY! i'm brOKE!!!!!! but who caReS? at leASt i got whAT i want.. after that we went down to bras brasah complex go the popular there and buy stationery..after that went to seiyu.. haiz.. ask him out at the wrong time.. cox he meetin his fren go cut hair.. while walking..me and charissa talk alot..hmn.. lots of secrets..lOlx.. maybe it was that talk with charissa made me realise that cherishing something or someone is important.. there may be only just one chance to get started off.. but becox if the chance is not properly cherished.. it is forever gone..sometimes i really wish that i was not born..feel so irritated by the things and people around me.. why for nothing i keep kana scoldin by my mom? wah kaoz..wad she expect me to do at home whole day sia? me either is online whole day or sleep whole day.. den like that kana say.. for nothing she will juz suddenly say things that she feels i do wrong..wad the heck is this manz? juz cant stand it... so what if she noes something is going on between me and joseph? everything she think is right, but has she spare a thought for me? If i want trouble, i will get myself into trouble de.. here i am trying to keep a low profile with joseph.. but..haiz.. if she's not so negative thinking that i will do stupid things.. i wont have to lie to her or whatever liaoz.. juz don seems to have my own privacy at all.. i'm 17 this yr liaoz lor.. i noe what i am doing but she still feels that i still dono what i doing.. for goOdness saKE manz!! juz think about this make me sad..
**~~i'm serious about everything that i do now.. even if it concerns about me and him...**~~
Friday, July 02, 2004 . 11:25 PM
haiz..so sianz.. nite time nothing to do.. juz kana chased to log off but i dont care.. haiz.. juz found out that i have forgotten how to do my 'O' level things.. 7 mths never study liaoz.. of cox sure forget de mahz.. juz did my a-maths, realise alot i dono how to do.. die liaoz.. hoW? muz go practise during free time le..feel so scared..dono why also.. finally the star fish quek are all online.. all chattin with sidik and joseph..and i am here busy blogging.. haiz.
haiz..so sianz, stay at home.. no one to chat with online and here i am.. online since 8.30am.. gonna be online abt 8hours liaoz.. and i break the record le..haha.. no where to go, no place to wander.. feel like going out with him, but juz dono where is he.. haiz.. what should i do? what should i do? i can only wait till monday.. even if it is monday.. chance of meeting is so little.. :( wanna go watch spiderman 2 but think no one is free.. haiz.. still sad.. 5 more days.. wad will happen 5 days later? will he remember 5 days later is what day? haiz.. think he will..
Thursday, July 01, 2004 . 10:59 PM
haiz.. damn sad.. haiz.. he somehow noes im feeling sad today.. i also dono wad came over me.. suddenly juz feel so lost.. wanna be alone.. though i may laugh and joke today, deep down i noe that i'm not happy.. maybe i juz dont wanna affect others with my mood bahz.. haiz.today flag day.. quite alright.. at least this flag day manage to bond the class: DMMT/FT/1A/03 together.. especially the gals.. the guys are still a little quiet.. haiz.. at first we started off slacking, took a bus to farrer road.. den heard no people.. so all go boon keng eat breakfast..den after that.. ok liaoz.. some go bugis some clementi.. every corner we turn there will always be SP people so i went to causeway point alone and the rest of my classmates were at clementi.. duhZ. so many people station there how to sell flag, rite? muz think different way.. yea.. a different thinking is wad i really need now.. a talk will do.. a call will also do.. anything.. juz need to have someone by me now.. maybe my mickey mouse bahx... haiz.. sad..no mood write liaoz..
song: i think of you
singer: tata young
When I’m down and all alone
When nothing seems to matter
When I lose my hope
When I’m sad and confused
When it all gets turned around and ‘round
I can’t seem to reach for solid ground
When everything I’ve believed in seems untrue
All I have to do
Chorus
Is think of you
I think of you and it’s gone
Like you chase away the storm
Making it all okay
I think of you
I think of you and I’m strong
And I know I can go on
It’s like you set me free
When life gets the best of me
I just think of you
Now I know what love means
And whatever life may hold for me
Through the fire
Through the rain I believe
Cause there’s nothing I can’t bear
Knowing that you will be there
If I fall I won’t break
Through it all I’ll make it through
Cause all I have to do
(Chorus)
And when I think I’m all alone
I can’t see the way to go
Lost in the rain of my own tears
To wash away the pain and fear
(Chorus)
For the good times and the bad times
I just think of you
Cause you know you get the best of me
I just think of you
haiz.. miss him~