Monday, January 29, 2007 . 11:32 PM

Went back to school last Friday.
It was great.
The feeling was nice.
Knowing you get to see your friends for one last time.
Or the second last time.

Had a nice and wonderful lunch with Josel, Wei Zhen, Ck and dearie.
It was nice talking and laughing at stupid things.

Went shopped around for grad nite gownn with dearie.
Saw the same one that we saw the other time at OG Orchard Point.
But I wanna scout for more. Hehehe.
Time passes fast.
We will soon be graduating.
How fast can it be?
Let's hope the road to our future is smooth. :)

Wednesday, January 24, 2007 . 11:46 PM

Final day.
But I'm not happy.
Not with so many things going on in my mind..
Sigh..

Lost.
Dilenma.
Passion?
Interest?
Committment?

Define those in question marks (?)

I wish and want to have a weekend job so badly.
There's no income.
Alright, there's little income.
Little and no income seems the same to me.
For little income will be used up in 2 weeks.
No difference.

I would love to work.
Work work work.
So that I won't think of anything.
I would like to use work to keep me occupied.
I don't mind being called a workaholic.
I need more jobs and money.
I needed these.
Thus, I have to find more weekend jobs.
Sighs.

Saturday, January 20, 2007 . 12:58 PM

was practically sick the whole of this week.
suffering from gastroentritis and cystitis.
no wonder the pain in my stomach was so unbearable and the diarrhea just won't go away.
was quite critical to a certain point where I was sent to Changi Hospital for check up on Thursday.
And the medicine there works fine.
I'm fine right now. Hehe.

Dear came to visit me yesterday.
Since he end work a little earlier than usual.
Thanks darling~ hehe.

Graduation night ticket costs me $70 and getting a dress for me would easily cost me another $70 to $90.
And I have finally booked my first Basic Theory Test.
WoohOo.
Shall study for it and hope it will be a pass all the way. Hehehe. =x
Let's pray for it. =)

On a lighter note, ITP is ending in just 5 days. Can you believe it?
But I still have to continue with my work there.
Argh! I wish I can stop working for once and lead the life I want to first.
Then I won't feel so tired.. =p

Monday, January 15, 2007 . 3:00 PM

It's now down to 10 more days.
And it'll be over.
But I still have to continue working.
Sighs.

Went for the NTU talk on Saturday.
There were 2 degrees that I would like to take especially.
One is the Comms Studies, the other is for NIE.
Okay. It's a little funny to see me teaching.
But the way they write on the pamphlet itself is so interesting.
I know it's a little propaganda-ish, especially for every course where they say: "Oh, this course is fun. It has this this this that that that and stuffs."
But at the end of the day, it's like: "Damn, why the hell did I ever take this course." Haha..

It doesn't hurts to apply for more than one course isn't it?
And maybe then I can try out for NUS Law as well as SMU Law.
Heh heh.
And if I ever get into SMU Law, it's time to say: "Hi, cousin." Hahaha.
My parents were rather supportive of my decision to go Uni.
Alright, though there were a little tone of doubt in my mom's voice asking: "You really want to continue studying?"
But still, am glad that they didn't just put me down and say: "You sure you can make it?"
Whoever's going to tell me that, I'm going to so throw my temper at the person.
Not to mention, it happened once before.
For I hate people putting my dreams down.

In any case, I shall just apply first and see how.
Whether I'm able to get in or not, will just have to depend on how well am I going to do for the written test and interview for Comms Studies, and for Law, I'm not very sure yet.

On the other hand, I think I'm going to land in a financial problem right after this attachment ends.
So let's hope, the salary they are offering will be high enough to at least give my mom $100 to $200. And the rest to be enough to support myself as well as going for driving lessons and whatsoever lessons I want to take and as well as playing the good elder sister and giving both my sis some allowance.

It's time to be a little ambitious, but it doesn't hurt to do so either right? Heh heh.
It's 15th day of 2007 and I'm only making a little resolution now.
How nice. Hahahaha.

Thursday, January 11, 2007 . 10:43 PM

Will my hopes be dashed?
I pray not.

Will my dreams be fulfilled?
It'd better be.

Will I achieve my aspiration?
I hope yes.

Will I continue my life this way?
Yes, I'd would.

For every little things I've done, it's still ME.
For every little tinge of fear, jealousy, worries, it's still ME.

For you, life might stopped halfway when you're not here.
For you, the tears dropped were precious.
For you, I'm trying to accept everything.

Because of me, you tolerate all the nonsense from me.
Because of me, the sadness and hurt won't subside so easily for us. Or is it just me?
Because of me, you love me still as much as before.
And because of you, I can't bear to separate myself as far away from you.

Perhaps, this is my life.
Never able to be independent.
Never to be as far away from my loved ones.
Because this is me.

I'm still trying to come to terms with things.
Because it's down to 14 more days. 2 weeks.
It'll soon be over, I supposed.
And then, it's time to start counting down to the day when I will see you enlisted.
And to the day when you'll be out.
The wait is so long.
But I will still be here.
It's now down to 6 years down the road, 21 more days to 2nd year.

Monday, January 08, 2007 . 10:29 PM

I so hate last minute things.
period.
no comments..
sigh..

i hate the media world suddenly.
maybe i should just stop all media work.
maybe i should not even think of entering NTU Comms Studies.
period.

Sunday, January 07, 2007 . 6:54 PM

Went to kbox at marina square yesterday with dear, ck, joy and sher. fun fun!
met up with dear joy and sher first and we walked over to kbox first.
then while walking, we saw superstars - top 6! hahaha.
forgot to take pics with them. wasted.
buthen, partly also don't want to take pics with others i don't like. haha.
later spoil pics. lolz.
hope that person faster out too. hahaha. =x

sang till very shuang.. coz we sang alot alot of songs.
but one irritating thing was, they chased us out at 6pm.
so irritating right?
never mind, next time go elsewhere sing. haha.

joy left slightly early a little bit. then left dear ck sher and me.
so we went for dinner.
took a long time to decide what's for dinner. haha.
end up we went to eat subway, as requested by Ms Lee in the very first place. haha.
then went walk walk a while before sher's parents picked her and ck up to go church.
okok, ck didn't went church. they just gave him a lift. haha.
den me and dear went suntec walk.
a little tired so not really in a very shopping mood. haha.
quite an enjoyable day out. =)

on a lighter note, someone seems to be counting down to 1.2.2007. =)
that will be our 2nd yr together. hehe..

ain't the mood to go work tomorrow.
sighs. 18 more days can. ah!!!
somebody save me!!

Saturday, January 06, 2007 . 12:15 AM

went back for SPINNOVEX 2007 today.
from 1 to 8pm can.
tiring ah..
a little sian also.. keep seeing the video repeating haha..

Joy, xiaowei and senghee on duty from 9 to 1pm.
Dear and I from 1 to 8pm.
Joy came back at about 7pm to accompany us.
Then after that went dinner.
Coz she drove to school.
COol. haha..
Went blk 85 ate ba chor mee and satay.
yummy yum yum.
Next time then call you lar, okie sher? hehe.. =p
After that went home.
Joy joy sent me home hehe.. So cool..
Hope my first $1000+ can come in faster.. then I can go take driving le. =)

Tomorrow going kbox!
Shuang.
Joy, dear, sher, ck and me. Hehehe.
Finally.. hehe..
A little tired now. Shall go sleep soon.

Friday, January 05, 2007 . 12:07 AM

was back in school today for the SPINNOVEX.
boring!
thought it might be fun but it turned out otherwise.
and the shoe kept biting me.
damn.

I'm still in a holiday mood.
Somebody save me.
Totally no mood to work now can.
And we are still left with 20 days.
Minus-ing off the weekends, it will be 16 days.
2 weeks more. And that's the end of ITP.
Hooray!!

Suddenly, I just looked forward so much to the end of ITP.
It means I can take my long holiday.
Spend my time doing what I want.
Go where I want.
Can't wait for that day to come.

Oh, and graduation dinner is on 9th March 2007, at Le Meridien.
Anyone wanna go?

Feeling tired now.
Still have to wait for dear reach home.
Sigh.
Why Le Sheng out? double sigh.

Want to watch the new movie: One Last Dance.
Seems nice.
Anyone wanna go too?

All these just shows my boredom even more. Haha..

Monday, January 01, 2007 . 10:53 PM

First day of 2007.
How does it feels like?
It's just like any other normal day lo. hAhahaa..

Went for countdown yesterday with dear.
But before that, we went to watch movie at Lido.
Watched Night at the Museum. So hilarious. A must-watch. Haha..
Dumb dumb, where's my gum gum..
Hahaha..

After movie, went to walk along Orchard Road.
Bought quite a number of things hehe.. coz festive sales. Haha.
Anyway, walked all the way down to PS before taking a train to Raffles and heading to Lau Pa Sat for supner.
[Note: Dinner not taken at all so can't possibly be supper right? Haha.]

A slight drizzle surely didn't dampen the countdown mood.
After supner, walked to Marina Bay area, but was too crowded.
End up, we went to the Merlion that area.
So packed can.
People were like squeezing here and there.
And spraying the foam thingy.
Quite party mood but I don't like the foam thingy. Haha.
Coz it means, I will have to wash my hair when I got home. Lolz.
Anyway, at the stroke of twelve, fireworks lighted up the sky.
So beautiful.
Some were quite NDP-ish, others totally never see before one.
Quite like it, except the pushing here and there.
After that, went back home.
Rush for train as the last train is leaving City Hall at 1.30am and it wouldn't be too good to make my dad pick us up so late.
Dear stayed over coz by the time he sends me back to Tampines, the last train was gone. hehe.
Anyway, had a nice countdown and a great day.

Slept at about 2+am. So tired..
But woke up late. Shuang! Haha.
Anyway, Happy New Yr guys! hEhehe.