Friday, October 15, 2004 . 3:19 PM

today felt so lifeless.. cox of last nite.. it really tire me out.. after the cry.. no mood to laugh, no mood to joke. i'm just back to the sad fishy.. not a happy fishy now.. thought could have a good sweet dream last nite especially after receiving kf's sms.. but, after finding things out myself due to my curiosity, i've been deprived of my sweet sleep.. cried to sleep.. this feeling really is not good.. i tried telling myself that it's over.. it's impossible.. haiz.. anyway, told WZ about why i am feeling so sad and lifeless today, with no mood to do anything. she too felt sad for me.. when i showed her everything, i wanted to cry again. 'wanna spend more moments with you and will cherish the times we had together..' last time he too said that, but maybe he realise that i'm not the type he want. maybe we understood each other too well le bahz.. haiz.. i dono..

morg haven finish.. sick and tired of doing it.. haiz.. dono how to do also.. how? smsed shukai tell him i damn stress and feel like givin up.. i cant take it anymore.. i very sad.. how? need someone to cheer me up..