Wednesday, October 13, 2004 . 11:26 PM

went to school feeling tired as usual. but this time tired is becox my eyelids felt heavy. especially after crying for quite a while last nite. just don feel like mentioning about it anymore.. it's just so sad.. was abit late for gdit.. den halfway thru lessons, i cried. i just cried so suddenly. it's not like me at all. to cry out of a sudden. that's not my style. i know KP and josel tried their best to make me smile during gdit, but sorry guys. i really at that moment don fel like laughing or wad. continued crying.. also dono for wad.. missing him? sort of i will admit. haiz.. dbms pract, KP cried. coz of well, some reasons. yup, don think about that matter too much le ok? it's naturally that you have that thinking.. ya? hehe.. left practical 13 the last few questions.. actually can do finish if not for some stupid joke played by shawn. was damn fed-up at him.. that i totally ignore the guys for the rest of the day. that's a very mean joke to play with in the first place.. especially if my mood is already so bad since morning.. well, as we gals alwys say.. guys are so insensitive to feelings. ya? although he had apologised, well i actually accepted it but was still mad at him. a stupid prank played on someone who's not in a good mood.. haiz..

during break time, actually wanted to eat.. buthen think and think.. forget it don feel like eating.. den KP pull me go and eat.. so anything lor.. ate my favourite western food... haha.. been eating that for the past few days. growing fat le.. hehe. while walking to the stall.. i cried again.. partly is becox mad at shawn for that joke and partly is becox i felt so lousy at that moment. saw joseph. faster wiped away my tears.. ya? though i think he did not see us, i dono why i still wipe my tears away. finished eating so i went to buy a second packet of fresh milk and drink.. saw joseph with a gal sitting together and eating. he like that gal? i dono. or maybe they are just frenz? from what i noe of him, i think he like that gal ya? if it is a gal he like, he will ask her out one.. whether is it break time or wad or a movie.. haiz.. dono also..

whole of today, i've sort of only have been in contact with shukai? ya? ytd he told me online that today is his presentation.. haha.. forgot to wish him good luck.. but anyway, everything turned out fine.. he called about 5pm, just to sae his presentation over liaoz.. diaoz..den left me haven finish my assignments and all..sad lehx.. ytd online chat with him alot of things..told him whats up with my MSN nick and he agreed with what i say and i ageed with what he say.. hehe.. he's really a great friend to mix with.. yA?

smsed joseph last nite while i was crying. waited for his reply but he just never replied back.. till this morning he also nv reply. did he receive it or did he not? i dono also.. don't he noe that the sms i sent him meant alot to me? it can at least really cheer me up a little.. but he has never replied.. up till now, i'm still waiting. haiz..

[F]isHy says: i'm really feeling very lousy today. tml's a special day, but i'm still not happy.. why? i'm missing something from my life..