Tuesday, October 12, 2004 . 10:27 PM

today, josel nv come.. cox she woke up late.. KP told us that she woke up at 10.30am, den see still early so continue slping until our break time den wake up.. cox she cried last nite.. wad happened to jo? why she cry? haix.. stress? tell us if you got any probs k? so, today's life was only me, KP and WZ. so quiet lor.. no jokes.. haix..

after dbms tutorial , me, WZ and KP went to fc4 to have breakfast as usual.. den later while walking back to 2032 for morg, saw joseph.. in formal.. nv tucked in somemore..so the poor guy got said by me..i told him: hey, can tuck in anot.. very untidy leh.. he said: later la.. and den he walked off le.. late for class liaoz lor him.. plus, i think he today nv spray bahz.. no smell one.. everytime no matter how little he will spray, i can alwys smell it but not today.. y? miss that smell so much.. haha..

break. dbms lecture. yup. the whole time in dbms lecture was playin with clemens (ms khoo) haha.. like kids manz.. throw things here and there.. haha.. anyway. thats not the point.. hehe.. went to find leon chua on our gdit assignment 4 and let he comment.. wah, he so troublesome lor.. haha.. cannot find plug to put his the cable for laptop.. lousy. so in the end we went to fc6 where there are so many of it.. haha.. den showed him everything.. gosh! i gonna redo all over.. need to do so many changes.. hehe.. after everything, went to lab with WZ so that she change the logo and i send it to KP they all at nite.. den i went home after lab.

i'm alone. yes, alone. went to school alone, came back home alone today. coz sher ended at 12pm today.. she no CRS.. so good.. so she went out with cass to town to watch movie.. and the poor me still have lessons.. but anyway. that's not the point too. on the train, i felt the loneliness within me.. i was so sad.and i started to think about the past.. so i msg KP.. guessed i might have scared her.. asked what happened so i reply back telling her that i dono too.. but i only noe that i miss talkin to him. yes him. not gonna say who is it.. it just happened so suddenly... it's been so long already and yet it happened once again. i felt so lost. i wanna cry. i wish he was there. i just miss talking to him.. i dono why. he may not be perfect. he may not be good-looking. but haiz, i just miss those times with him. he's busy. guess i shan't bother him? my imagination starts running wild again. headaches. when will it stop? haiz..

[F]isHy says: the worst way to miss someone is when they are standing just right infront of you and knowing that you can't have them. i miss you. i miss the times that were once spent together. i-miss-u. a crush won't help solve everything. -sad-

Nite time was a pure torture.. did my gdit and the stupid chinese program dono wad happen till i cant type english words come out.. so fed-up with it cox i'm already very tired. and haiz.. wadever it is, my parents have failed to understand me. i'm tired. why cant they just give me a break? now, i really see no point in life at all.. i'm at the lowest point of my life now. but no one noes.. what should i do? *cries*