Friday, September 24, 2004 . 1:35 PM

The biggest achievements in life was in secondary school, where i passed my 'O's with flying colours. at least thats what i thought. that passing all my subjects with only 2 Cs and the rest Bs.. it really wasn't expected that i will pass all. Although the psat memories are happy and sad, the best life was still in secondary school. especially with my class: 1E5(2000), 2E5(2001), 3E5(2002), 4E5(2003). My class rocks manz~

Now, everything in my life seems so wrong. so stressed up. not like in secondary school where the stress was even lighter than now. Lesser time to sleep, waking up so early in the morning, having some boring lessons at times, assignments to finish, dateline all dueing soon. Just where have all my free time went to? First few week sor even months of poly life seems so good. All going to clubroom, slacking till 6+pm. Going to school together and all.. but now... just what exactly happened? everyone are like leading their own private lives now. Things just ain't like last time! I prefer the past! Although I have very good friends in class as well as outside class-- yup, KP, Josel, WZ, sher,cher etc.. i sometimes still feel sad. Sad because so many things have happened. used to be 6 girls together. one has left and another going soon. thus, it will be 4 left. though seats are enough for 4 pple, it's still kinda sad that the class size is getting smaller and there wont be as much fun as last time. we may laugh and joke but each and everyone of us have our own problems too! Just where has the happy memories went to?

Communication between family have been cut short. I'm always reaching home, eat, bath, watch 1 hr of TV and onmy computer to do myt assignments. They don't know what i exactly want. Just like when i say i got formal presentation, no one cares manz! It's all up to me do dress and buy what i when.. how to when they never even give me money to buy? Everything has changed. Times flies so fast. If only time can stop now. If only i can turn back the time, then everything will turn out fine. I believe so. I don't want to create illusions for myself. Had enough of living in my world of dreams and fantasy. It's high time i wake up!

Been drifted away from my closest frenz- sher, cher, joseph, sidik ah pat etc. cher will be busy with her video and audio assignment as usual. sher will be with ai wee, phoebe they all to do their assignments too, to go out together. Joseph has been busy with his own work and assignments too! Havent been really talking much to him either. Even if there is a chance to talk, it's only for a few minutes. Just like these 2 days, online chat with him less than 30 mins he gotta go bath liaoz.. den he offline le.. sad case.. then sidik in NS liao, next will be ah pat and gerald turn! haiz. contact between each other has been minimize again! haix, whereas me? Been working on weekends till oct 3 and rushing to meet the assignments dateline which is also before oct 3. time management has to be very carefully planned. although i cant stand it, i still have to bear with it. everything will be over soon i believe. in just a few weeks tie. i wish, i hope, i pray that everything's gonna be alright. that everything's gonna move smoothly.It's been hard to come this far, and I'm never giving up! never! giving up halfway will only means letting myself down. I will still have the strength to go on, i believe so.

Just feeling so stress right now. too tired to concentrate on any other things. I can only focused on what have to be handed in soon. Can't focused elsewhere. Need a breather from everything. to release myself from those lot of assignments! kaifeng told me that must laugh once in a while, so that we wont go crazy. i need that toO! a good laugh to prevent myself from going crazy, and a good cry to release stress and everything thats been in my heart for so long.